Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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newlymarried 08/27/2011

Today was a great day for me. Not feeling depressed.....but feeling a little anxious. Whenever, I start to feel better it scares me because I have become so comfortable living with depression. I am on a cocktail of meds, but I guess they are working. I feel like a baby learning things all over again.....like controlling my thoughts (still a big hurdle for me). Today, I actually listened to music and relaxed for the first time in months. I guess I have to take each day one step at a time.
This support group has helped me soooooo much!

heretic 08/27/2011

Glad you're doing good - Hugs

Summerwind81 08/27/2011

This is awesome to hear! Very happy you're doing better...hugs to ya :)

EverlastingHope 08/28/2011

So great to hear this. I seem to be still on the roller coaster of good and bad days. I remember the good and look forward to them again.

hopefullyannon 08/28/2011

i like posts about good days

we could use more of those around here

:)

deleted_user 08/28/2011

That's great to hear :) Yes, I agree with your point that you "feel like a baby learning things all over again."

I had a similar conversation with my SO not long ago, talking about how to deal with my perfectionism, something built in so inherently to my personality, world view, and sense of self, that removing it would require, essentially, a lot of rebuilding, relearning, and remolding.

It's not an easy task, but the "lucky" thing, in my opinion, is that it IS so inherent a part of our lives (whatever it may be that we're trying to change), so we will have plenty of chances to practice along the way :) So, as long as we keep at it "next time," failure now is inconsequential. Just hang in there.

*Hugs* I hope tomorrow is as easy on you as today was :)

Elle

hopefullyannon 08/28/2011

being a perfectionist can be great sometimes

lots of proffessions are great to be a perfectionist in...

one friend who was always the biggest perfectionsist i ever knew, went on to paint cars, and has a great career doing it now because he wouldnt accept even the tiniest flaw in anything.

i know if i ever need brain surgery, i want a perfectionist doing it!

and so on...

so dont loose too much of that perfectionism!

:)

deleted_user 08/28/2011

I appreciate your optimism, hopefully :) However, many of my achievements have come at a terrible cost. I understand the use of doing well and consistently so when you're servicing others, but when your sense of self-worth becomes derived only by achieving, and only temporarily so (shortly after each achievement, self-esteem begins to sink gain), then there is no use - only self-deprecation.

For me, I could receive the Nobel Peace Prize next year, and still lose sleep that night because I misspelled a word on a report I submitted to work because I would have to be "stupid" to do such a thing. I wouldn't wish it on anyone, necessarily.

hopefullyannon 08/28/2011

well dont forget, being well rested is an achievement too...

:)

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