OMG! IT'S BEEN LIKE 3 WEEKS SINCE MY ON AGAIN OFF AGAIN RELATIONSHIP/ AFFAIR HAS BEEN OVER WITH R SO I THOUGHT ! BUT MATT CALLED ME TODAY AND ACTS LIKE NOTHING HAPPENED- HE TALKED AND BEFORE I COULD GET A WORD OUT OF MY MOUTH - HE SAYS MY WIFE KAREN HAS MOVED OUT AND TAKEN THE CAR- I'M DOING BETTER AND I LOVE YOU AND I'LL CALL U AT 8 TONIGHT ! I COULDN'T GET ONE WORD OUT OF MY MOUTH- AND OUT OF HABIT I SAID I LOVE U BACK- TO MAKE THIS SITUATION ALITTLE MORE COMPLICATED THERE IS A 50/50 PERCENT CHANCE I'M PREGNANT AND HE IS THE FATHER- I HAVEN'T TOLD HIM YET AND NOW I'M WONDERING DO I TELL HIM THIS TONIGHT R DO I NOT? WHAT DO I EVEN SAY TO THIS MAN WHO HURT ME 16 TIMES! I STILL LOVE HIM AND I WANT TO BELIEVE ALL OF WHAT HE IS SAYIN IS TRUE- BUT SOMEHOW I REALLY DOUBT SHE IS LEAVING AND I'M GOING INSANE HERE - HOW DO U GET OVER SOMEONE WHEN THEY WON'T GO AWAY- I'VE TRIED GETTING A NEW NUMBER- HE KNOWS WHERE I LIVE AND SO HE WOULD JUST DRIVE HERE IF I DIDN'T ANSWER MY PHONE AND IF I STILL REFUSED TO TALK TO HIM- HE WOULD SEND ME A LETTER- HE IS GONNA GET TO ME AND TRY TO PULL ME BACK IN - I CAN ALREADY FEEL IT HAPPENING ! WHAT AM I GONNA DO AND WHY ME LORD! WHY ? !!! I JUST WANNA SCREAM !!!! SOMEONE PLEASE SHOOT ME IN THE HEAD !!!
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