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Noticing sign of of downward spiral again

struggling16
struggling16

I've been out of the hospital for a week and it's been rough. High aniexty due to the new stressor of my ex husband is a pedophile. But my new med make me somewhat zombie ish. So I don't cry or do much just internal hold things in like I use to. Well I've notice I don't since I been I have bath nor have I wanted to I haven't wanted to do anything not even eat. I think the roommate lady has notice something off about me, she gave me a fidget spinner to try to help. I'm under alot of stress and I wish I would just not wake up in the morning. And on the bad days I just want to kill myself. Tho days I usually land in the hospital. 4x in the last 8 months. I have 2 and half month to make a big decision but I see no choice already. There no way I will be able to be a full time parent I barely functioning now. I just want this all to end. And take my ex with me.

TooMuch
TooMuch
sometimes it can help to force yourself to do some things. and i mean FORCE it. to eat. to move. to do whatever should be done. or sometimes it isn't even something you can rationalize as needing to be done! just something that seems like maybe something a "normal" person would do. i used to scoff at the phrase "fake it til you make it" until i actually tried faking it. it sounds horrible and some voice inside of me still screams out against it, but faking it a few times actually makes "it" more bearable, and then things start to fall into place. and you know what, barely functioning is still functioning so give yourself credit where it's due, but don't dwell on it. don't dwell on anything, just do what needs doing and see what happens. my heart goes out to you.
Krissy36
Krissy36
Ugh, it csn seem like, WHY should i take a bath, for what? Or why should i eat or wake up...but its like you have to fake it till you make it. And eventually, IT WILL make you feel more normal, i promise. And maybe your not at your best and maybe now being a full time parent would be too much? But that doesnt mean that it will always be that it will always be that way. I hope things look up for you- and just start doing little things to care for yourself- instead of thinking why, whats the point, just think why not, whats the point of not doing it? Good luck, message me if you want - Krissy
OlderCPer
OlderCPer
Have you considered ECT (Electric Shock Therapy)? It is not something to be used lightly, but when people are in a serious depression that does not respond to any other treatments such as medications or therapy, ECT can be a lifesaver. I've done 3 cycles of it when I was so Depressed I was ready to just finally end it all and be done with it. I was in the Hospital for 1 1/2 months before my Pdoc and I agreed it was time to try the last ditch effort, because nothing else was working. You might want to talk to your Pdoc about it and see what his take is...
Zoe
Zoe
I think all hospitals need to have classes on what to expect when you leave and how to handle it. The first hospital I was in had this and it was very useful. Take life 15 minutes at a time. Baby steps. Lots of support and hugz to you.
sharaninmd
sharaninmd
Sorry for all that you are struggling with. Try to make yourself do one thing at a time. Don't think about why or why not, just do it. As you get back into doing the things you once did, they will all of a sudden turn into your routine, I wish you the best and hope you get back on your feet soon. When you are in a better place, you will know whether or not you can be a functioning parent.
struggling16
struggling16
I just been thinking all day I want to take all my haloperidol and just go to sleep and never wake up!
S.Serenity
S.Serenity
I can't relate to the feeling of a down ward spiral. For me I try to catch myself so I don't fall completely into the abyss. When my kids were young they actually helped me feel a sense of purpose, there innocence. I was able to play with them, they loved me & thought I was important which helped me self esteem & depression. I found routines worked good for all of us. They were kind of my alarm clock many times. I went through a time of abusing alcohol & taking non-prescribed drugs to cope with anxiety & depression......
struggling16
struggling16
I took a shower but I didn't want to. I just don't know how much longer I'll be able to hold on.
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