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Love yourself, and give yourself what you need. We love you here, but you must find inner love for yourself.

I'm sorry that you think your family doesn't want you. That must hurt.
When you start to love yourself, and have faith in yourself, no one has the power anymore to hurt you.

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When I first came to DS I felt very much like no one in my family or anywhere loved me. Like bridget said, learn to love yourself and then it won't matter if they do or not.

sorry gooch, sometimes people do love someone, maybe you, but don't know how to express it or can't.

now, u can love people like crazy if you want!

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I don't know them so you already know I can't really express a valid opinion on the subject, but I suspect the depression is talking when you feel that way.

What I CAN say with certainty is that WE want you and love you!!

peace for Gooch

http://www.dailystrength.org/c/Depression/forum/11298550-sending-out-love-all

Love you, Gooch! Sending hugs:

{{{{{{{{ GOOCH }}}}}}}}

I'm so sorry you are feeling so sad. I'm sorry you have such a family that doesn't let you know they love you. But you are loved here. Stay with us here, we care for you. Keep loving yourself.

Gooch that is a heavy burden to have carried since you were 4.

Is there anything in particular that makes you feel that way? did they do or say anything or is it just your fear.

thanks everyone for your support.

this is very interesting. a couple of days ago i was feeling
left out by my family.
it triggered something from the past at age 4.
my father did not want me. he stayed and provided.

presently that came to mind and threw me for a loop.
i did learn tho. there is absolutely nothing i can do to change
that hurt and loss. i am wasting my time thinking about it.

"I am beginning to think my family doesn't want me."

That seems like quite a generalization to me, Gooch. Your family may have criticism of you, .. or prefer this to that .. but few families completely reject other family members.

I think you are possibly reacting to a 'trigger memory' .. rather that your family doesn't want you.

I could be wrong .. but that is what I suspect.

I'm sorry that triggered a painful memory. Painful memories bombard me daily so I can relate. It's like I want to believe it didn't really happen. Anyway, I hope you can just treat it like a bad dream, something to forget about and focus on all the decades of good times you have had with your family since you were age 4.

hang in there gooch...rooting for ya

It's amazing how much potency the events of our early childhood can still have decades later. I am struggling with this myself today.

I am sending you a friend request because I love and want you! Hope it helps to know that you are loved and wanted by many here.

Just want to relate for a moment...

My father committed suicide when I was 4 years old. It would be real easy for me to say that because he did that, he didn't care.... or didn't 'want' me. Sadly I think some people go about life without even a fleeting thought of how their actions can impact others. And most likely we have ALL--at some point--had a negative effect on someone else. Even if it was unintentional.

Your posts are often vague and confusing to me, so I can't really offer advice. But I hope you get things sorted and feel better.