Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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Not suicidal but...

mal66
mal66
...wishing, praying that I somehow stumble on death. ((((GRIM REAPER, ARE YOU LISTENING??!! WHERE YOU AT???!!!)))) An example: I've prayed that one day some thug will try to rob me at gun point with me at an obvious disadvantage and I can tell him to go fuk himself and he can then blow my brains out...anything so that my family can collect on my insurance policy so they aren't left in limbo...
Life really sucks rotten eggs!!!
Community LeaderThePepperMan
ThePepperMan
Sorry about that. I have days like that too.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I have felt exactly the same as you. I can recall thinking the very words you said here. All I can say, is that people need you and want you around much much more than you know. You will see better days if you only hold on. I have been there where holding on seems like a losing battle, but it is not. You will be ok. Stay here with us. Your days will get better.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I know how you feel. Suicide has always been off the table for me because I can't stand the thought of the suffering it would cause those (few) people that really care about me.

But the other day I learned about my wife's friend's father having cancer. "Lucky bastard," I thought.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I bought a motorcycle for the same kind of reason. I'm too much of a coward to really off myself. But if I die on my motorcycle it'll be fast and...an accident. People will then say things like "well, at least she died doing something she loves!"
deleted_user
deleted_user
Hang on in there Mal i to are having thoughts i dont like for instants i was diagnosed with Pleural Thickening of the lungs caused by asbestos and when i came out of the surgery i was happier than i have been in a long long time, sucs dont it, i have had depession for about 25 years brought on by prednisilone (medical steroids) not much i dont know about it
Take care