Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
Well, I've made it. I'm nearly at the finish line and I'm not scared anymore. Dying doesn't scare me, the idea of not being alive doesn't scare me, the people I'm going to leave behind don't hold me back anymore. I'm sitting at my desk with my antidepressants piled up front of me. This is a scene I'm used to and I've been in before, but every other time, I've been too afraid to go through with it, I pop one before bed and wake up the next morning to repeat the grind.
I've been crying all day, I feel like I have no future, no way to get out of this. The only thing stopping me at this point is that I don't want my parents to be the ones to find my body. But I feel like unless something happens in the next few days, I'm going to actually go through with it.
I'm praying for you tonight. I eventually was able to find some hope in my faith, although I still struggle immensely because man, this life is hard! I so so hope you can find hope. Your parents would be heartbroken, as would other people in your life. I say the best thing you can do is tell someone about these feelings. Or text 741741 and they can help talk you through this. Don't go, I don't want the world to lose you, you have so much potential. Suicide is not reversible, but if you hang on you might find that someday you do not wish to die. Call 911, please, if you can't help yourself. Otherwise call a hotline or text the number I gave you before.
I grapple with depression, hopelessness, pain etc...for me and others here please hold on. life is so hard....suicide kills not only you but all that you leave behind.
please turn yourself over to someone who can help.
that said ......I was dowen so far I was put in the hospitail needed shock treatment ....that realy was a life saver for me ......I hung on got all the help I could get and now I know what it is to be with out depreshion .....I have a life worth living ......I am happy i chose to hang on and get the help and work on getting better ...and it was a very rough ride .......I hope you will think about ..hanging in there ...you never know what the future can bring ...I will keep you in my prayers ......
First, why do you want to die more than you want to live? Is it that you haven't found the answer to your emotional pain yet?
Is it that you haven't found your life purpose yet?
Is it that you think it will not matter to others?
You will hurt more people than you can imagine. You are believing lies if you think it won't hurt others.
And you take all your pain with you when you leave your body and go through death's door. It will be worse on the other side of that door because you take your thoughts and feelings with you. You leave your body behind here on earth but the inner person still continues to live.
So it is very important that you find the answers here in this life.
Death is not the answer. Especially by taking your own life. It is not your time to go and it is not your purpose in life to end it now.
Some meds actually cause suicidal thinking. You might need to check and see if you can change your meds to help stop your suicidal thinking.
Whatever your pain, whatever your heartache, whatever your relationship problems--there are solutions. You may not have found them yet--but that doesn't mean they don't exist. Like looking for gold, you might not find gold the first time you dig for it. But what would happen if you did find gold after digging for 20 years--wouldn't it be worth the effort? Yes.
Well, your life is worth the effort. You are a unique one-of-a-kind person and there is no-one exactly like you on this planet so that means you are irreplaceable, priceless, valuable, and important even if you don't "feel" that right now.
Feelings come from our thoughts and actions. Feelings change throughout the day. So we can't depend on our feelings to guide and direct us. We must be guided by wholesome thoughts and good, kind actions. Our feelings will change when we do that.
If we are believing lies (like nobody loves me) then we will start feeling rejection.
But if we start believing the truth (like there are people who love you even if you don't feel their love right now or they haven't expressed it in ways you have needed lately--it doesn't mean they don't love you just because you don't feel it right now) so when we start believing the truth (there are people who really do love and care) then encouraging feelings come. So check out what you are thinking and start asking yourself if those thoughts are lies. Or if they are assumptions. Truth always brings encouragement. If it doesn't, then maybe it isn't truth. We can't live our lives on lies or part lies.
I have been where you are. I have completely been set free from the negative thoughts and feelings. I have found my life purpose after 58 years. You can come through this deep dark valley in your life and become free too!
You would want to have the freedom to enjoy and love life so you can take that in your heart and mind when it is your time to go. But now is not the time for you to die and next year isn't either. You haven't overcome in this life yet. There is so much more to live for than you can see right now. If it is dark and you can't see your way through to health and wholeness, we are here for you. Your purpose right now is to gind those answers. Suicide isn't an answer because you take all your pain with you.
Put anchor down in the storm. Keep safe and stay safe. You are worthy of life. Life is precious. Life is priceless. You are priceless.
While there is breath, there is hope.