Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I just keep thinking how people say that we can all make our own fate, and I wish it was true, but I just don't see how... And no matter what anyone says, I know I am not important to anyone.. If I was to die right now, ain't no one is going too care of miss me. My girls adore their dad, they love him even more than me I feel at times... So they will be ok with him.. They might feel sad the first few days, but that is it.. My own family, they are too busy and all they will worry about is making it to the funeral and then is back to their busy lives.. And my husband... He would probably be happy that I am gone since I have life insurance... it sucks badly not feeling love.. and that shit of love yourself first.. tried it, still lonely and it does not work... I guarantee that I can throw myself at any guy right now and I would be ignored.....
Please dont do this, you say your girls wont miss you, but the entire family will, and your girls will forever remember the day that 'Mum Died'
which will emotionally scar them.
I know you feel things are hopeless, but they can improve - is there not a place where you can get help to get out of or improve your situation?
Please dont think nobody cares - we do. you are now in the DS support system and we will try to help you in any way we can by offering support and advice and listening when you need to vent.
WE CARE!!
I read your post just now and was horrified at the things you are telling yourself!
Do you realize that suicide is an act of hate and aggression? Families never get over it. It is one of the worst things you could do to your children. It screams to them you are not loved enough by me to make me go through this life!
Do you love your girls? your children???? If you do, dig way down deep and find that love.
Live for them! Forget about how lonely you are and live for those children. They do need you! You are telling yourself a big lie when you say that they wouldnt miss you. They take you for granted which is normal and good- you are their rock. It is too easy to start a cycle of suicide in a family - (if mom didnt love me enough why should I go through this life?).
Stop listening to those negative thoughts! Stop telling yourself lies!
You are precious - if not to all people, then to some who would never get over losing you.
God Bless you and hang in there- we are praying for you!