Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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Callahan.0219
Callahan.0219

.. I feel like I grew up with depression but in all honesty I didn't.. I know what it felt like to be happy I am rarely happy but it still happens.. but there's always this feeling inside me that wants to emerge.. that its just sitting there ready to pounce on any sad occasion. it can be the smallest thing.. and it makes all these dark thoughts pop into my head and makes me so angry and sad at the same time.. I hate this so much... I feel like a freak.. like I have no one to turn to.. I try to tell my family and they don't understand how to handle it and freak out on me.. but can I blame them? I don't even know how to handle it.. I was going to therapy but my therapist got transferred and since she left.. I haven't tried finding anyone new.. I don't want to start over with someone new.. I want to be able to wake up tomorrow and just feel normal... to not feel like at any moment there is this monster that is going to come outside of my and attack.. my mind feels so bruised and beaten.. started feeling physically sad years ago and now its like ive been to war and back multiple times.. each time missing a new part.. I can still feel the part there but at the same time my mind tells me its gone and it just keeps hurting..

getbacktoserenity
getbacktoserenity
It could be genetic. Or it could be due to the environment you grew up in during your childhood years. Have you thought it over? Usually there are roots to the depression. If for example, you were a sickly child, you are more likely to have chronic depression in adulthood. It doesn't necessarily have to be any form of abuse that triggers it. Some people are born with certain defects (even if somewhat minor), which can affect them and over time and cause depression. Try to narrow down the reason why you feel this way. Lots of us here feel the way you do, but due to different reasons. I think its important to focus on the reason instead of on the feeling.
sharaninmd
sharaninmd
As a young child I grew up with depression and anxiety. I was raised by alcoholic parents. Later in life, I did seek professional help and was given medication and therapy. It would be advisable for you to find another therapist who can help you through this. I understand that it is difficult to tell another therapist your story, but it would be worthwhile and I have talked with several therapists.
careyon1
careyon1
So sorry to hear you're in this state. I agree with the previous response, you should definitely find a new therapist. I always believe things happen for a reason. Maybe there's an awesome therapist that God wants you to connect with. You should also see a professional so they can evaluate whether an antidepressant would be helpful. Just keep in mind, feeling better takes time. But it's worth the effort. Praying God directs you to a great therapist. Also, praying you feel those happy moments more and more.