It's when those thoughts arise you find a purpose. No matter how big or small. Something that makes you significant and feel good. That's all that matters

I agree with scaredandafraid. Find some kind of purpose: start a book, watch a movie, start a journal, take a walk. Before long, you'll find more purpises. I hope you feel better. I'll keep you in my prayers. Here if you need to talk. God bless.

GTB - I know that feeling. I know the emptiness and the hollowness that feels like everything can blow around inside. I feel that too. On many nights. On nights like this. On nights like this.... I had a purpose, I had a life. My life was bigger than me and I had a team. A team that I knew and that I would die for. That has passed me on. Now I only have memories of that team and memories of that purpose. But you move on to find other purposes, other teams, others to believe in. I am in that transition now. I can not tell you how to make that move and to find those others to believe in.

It is easy to despair. It is easy to give in to those thoughts. But I can assure you after months of my own despair, in fact, years, they lead nowhere. They lead you down into a whole that you do not wish to go. All I can say is to reach out and find that purpose, that those to care about and find something larger than yourself to believe in.

I struggle with this same thing constantly. I have such a low opinion of myself. I feel like everything I do is messed up and I always make bad decisions.

Some days my only purpose is to go buy a large chocolate custard milkshake.

I have been there before, friend. But I can assure you that there IS a purpose for you in this world. It may not feel like it, but you are important to people. It may not even be people that you realize, but I know you are important. Maybe you are feeling low because of a situation, or because of your genetic history, but you don't have to stay feeling low. Have you considered talking with a counselor about how you are feeling? When I was feeling this way, I started seeing a counselor and she helped me find my value and worth in this world when I couldn't see it. I promise you that you matter and you matter BIG!!!! I will pray for you that you will feel loved no matter what is going on. Thank you for being brave and sharing with us, that couldn't have been easy.

"It's when those thoughts arise you find a purpose. No matter how big or small. Something that makes you significant and feel good. That's all that matters."

Good comment! I felt depressed at some points in my life, I was not as successful as others, and was disorganized, and losing things. Why wasn't I as competent as other people. But one thing kept me together, I worked on food drives and did other charitable work, and was a positive force in the world- making it a better place. So even if I occasionally was a f...k-up, I was one who despite that could contribute in a meaningful way something I lot of other people couldn't say.