Thank you for sharing. Sadly, I can relate. I can remember probably two actually good days in my life, and ironically nothing special happened on those two days. They were just days that I didn't feel some kind of pain. To think that to many those are just normal days. It just makes us uniquely different, yet sadly in too much company. Life is enduring when living with Depression. It becomes an everyday thing, but we forget the great strength it takes to do just the simple things. Your endurance is an inspiration to someone like myself, including myself. Thank you for enduring, and please continue to endure. Some of our moments may not be long, but they can be powerful. When we can't find happiness in ourselves, we can sometimes find it in the smiles of others. It might sound corny, but it is true. Please fight on and help me to smile knowing that you are enduring. I hope this was of any help, and I apologize if not. Thank you and God Bless.

(((my))) several years ago, I hit a horrible place in my life and depression was a huge part of it. I know this feeling you describe very well. I didn't see any point in a future for the longest time.
the one thing that made a difference was trying to be mindful of the moment I was in. when I did this with some real effort, i began to realize that there were times when I was feeling okay but I was so in my head in places and times when I wasn't okay that I thought I wasn't okay when I was really okay.
oh I don't know if I just said what I meant, so hard to get it from my brain to the post sometimes. anywho triple hugs~