You are going through a bad time, tell yourself it won't always be like that. Lean on your family and friends for support, let them know you want to get better.

Let's start off by asking - what is something that you want out of life?

The problem is that I don't know what I want in life. I'm thinking about going back to school but I already owed $18.500 in student loans.

Maybe you're concerning yourself too much with defining yourself and your life by a career. There are many other things in life that make people valuable besides what they do for a living.

What interests do you have in terms of hobbies, sports, arts, etc?
For me, playing team sports and spending time volunteering adds a much needed sense of meaning and purpose to my life.
Whadya think?

I feel similar to the way you do without most of the positives you have going for you.

I haven't worked in 8 years as i'm unable to. All is do is watch tv all day and night, eat and sleep and smoke like a chimney. I can't do anything i like cos i am not very high functioning mentally.
I have my family and that's about it. I feel like if i wasn't here it wouldn't make a difference. Well it would save the GVT from paying me each week and that's about it. I hear ya.

i agree with SBoom entirely.

Have you tried volunteering? It's the thing that has worked best for me. I have to think about other people instead of myself, it keeps me busy and gives me a purpose.
Small gestures can enrich another person's life, things as simple as talking to an elderly person who lives in a nursing home. Or with your qualifications you can achieve something bigger. You're worth something Mona, you just can't see it at the moment! I hope you can feel better!

Choose life. Choose a job. Choose a starter home. Choose dental insurance, leisure wear and matching luggage. Choose your future. But why would anyone want to do a thing like that?