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Littlelooloo
Littlelooloo

I finally plucked up the courage to go to the doctors but the only thing the gave me is the same helplines I always get. I'm put on long waiting lists that don't seem to be letting up soon. I've been getting worse I think, I've almost fully shut myself of from my family, who don't even know what's going on with me. And I'm starting to hate the way I'm looking. Since December I've went down almost 2 dress sizes. This week it went to the next level and I've starting forcing myself to throw up. I can't seem to stop myself as there's always something or another to remind me to do it. I also don't remember the last time I had a full night's sleep. The longest I sleep is an hour or two and it's beginning to make me feel hopless.


I can't even rely on my doctors to help me.

bridgie101
bridgie101
No. First rule of adulthood - you have to help yourself. You are your own responsibility. So that means you have to tell the mother or father. Testing their love by seeing if they notice before you die sets you up for absolute devastation, humiliation, and misery. Be pragmatic. Be unromantic. Be straightforward and unmysterious.

If you have noticed you are closing off it is your job to open back up. If you have noticed yourself escalating yourself it is up to you to take steps to deescalate. No more trust falls for you. Ok? ☺
catskyn
catskyn
That's really sad that you cannot be seen by a doctor to get your medicine. I don't know what state you live in. Can't you find another doctor? You shouldn't be suffering like this. You should pray for God to help you , meanwhile get busy looking for another doctor. Their has got to be another Physician that can help.
TheLastStanding
TheLastStanding
If you feel like you are getting worse, then you must be persistent with the doctors, demanding even. I avoided every doctors appointment I ever had, was terrified by the idea of it...and I just got worse and worse. The fact that you have the good sense to try and see a doctor in the first place shows me that you want to get better, so don't give up, be persistent, you deserve help as much as anyone else.
Debbalina
Debbalina
Did you go to see a regular doc or a psychiatrist? The latter should be way more helpful. Open up to your family - Im sure they'd want to help if they knew what pain you were in.
shelda
shelda
The lack of sleep is what is the worst and it plays havoc on the mind. I know this from experience. Try and stay in bed..i am waking up with huge circles under my eyes now from my panic attack. Am Breathing..Am sending you prayers and hugs today. I hope you feel stronger soon..i have been praying and it seems to help.
djchurn
djchurn
When I lose sleep the "gremlins" start to come out. You need to seek help if for no other reason to get a med to help you sleep. After a few days sleep you likely will feel good enough to deal with other issues.