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just when i thought i had my depression under control and was starting to pick myself up from this black hole i've been in for the past 2 weeks... i was knocked down- went to the mail yesterday and didn't look or expect for a letter to be there from the ex...... didn't think about him as much as i used to and was getting used to the idea of being without him, and i was so proud of myself for these things- to me it was a big accomplishment....
so i felt good yesterday and i decided i'd do some things around the house to show that i appreciated being here and i wasn't a slacker,since i'm still waiting for a job .... so i did 4 loads of laundry, washed the dishes, cleaned the living room and dining room, gave my nephews a bath, did the 8 year olds homework with him, fed the animals and then was sitting like a good little 25 year old watchin tv with the kids when they got home..... well everything was ok til 10 pm when my friend ( a girl) called.......... and i got bitched out- like a child !
i was told u get off the phone now and she can call u in the daytime if she really wants to talk to you! i know it hurt my friends feelings- and it did mine too- i am a sensitive person- so i cry alot anyways, well this made me feel like shit and like no matter what i do it will never be good enough, i hate me , cause i can't get away from this place! if i had a place to go and money i'd be out of here before the day was over, and i find myself praying everynight for someone or something to take me away- to get me away from here, but there is no escape..... so how do i deal with being in this place everyday? cause i'm losing control of being able to deal with it- i find myself getting very angry and bitter and just wanting to hate the world !
so i felt good yesterday and i decided i'd do some things around the house to show that i appreciated being here and i wasn't a slacker,since i'm still waiting for a job .... so i did 4 loads of laundry, washed the dishes, cleaned the living room and dining room, gave my nephews a bath, did the 8 year olds homework with him, fed the animals and then was sitting like a good little 25 year old watchin tv with the kids when they got home..... well everything was ok til 10 pm when my friend ( a girl) called.......... and i got bitched out- like a child !
i was told u get off the phone now and she can call u in the daytime if she really wants to talk to you! i know it hurt my friends feelings- and it did mine too- i am a sensitive person- so i cry alot anyways, well this made me feel like shit and like no matter what i do it will never be good enough, i hate me , cause i can't get away from this place! if i had a place to go and money i'd be out of here before the day was over, and i find myself praying everynight for someone or something to take me away- to get me away from here, but there is no escape..... so how do i deal with being in this place everyday? cause i'm losing control of being able to deal with it- i find myself getting very angry and bitter and just wanting to hate the world !
deleted_user
Perhaps you need to get in touch with your authentic self; and do away with the shameful way you feel about yourself...deep inside. If you felt good about yourself; you would not need validation from others (although that would be nice). It sounds like you are a really good person; you just don't understand that you are a good person, as of yet. You sould like a very responsible, hard working type...and that's the type I like to have in my life.
RockNMetalChic
thank you for all the kind words...... feeling down right now- so i'm gonna go back to bed- i'll check this later....
deleted_user
Hugs hunnie and sorry xx
meandthebeast
hugs.. and what c140said.
ZAZAS
it's hard to live with others, I had to live with my daughter and she told me when to smoke, when to whatever. I felt like I had to ask permission to pee. Meanwhile I kept house and babysat. I know how it feels to be trapped. I no longer live with my duaghter, thank God. I appreciate her giving me a place to live when I needed it, but I am glad to be back in the position of being able to be mom.
RockNMetalChic
i just want to have my life back- be able to go out when i want and do what i want- was told i'm "not allowed " to meet anyone or even think of going out with friends til i move away...... makes me want out so bad and makes me feel like the walls are closing in on me... i feel stupid and helpless......
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