Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I seem to just be lost in all ways. My recent job loss has brought things to light for me. I certainly do not want to trouble anyone that I know in my life with anything, but I wish I had someone to help me with things. I have no connection to anyone. I always have tried to look so good and not let on that I ever needed anything. I have two kids and I rarely talk to them. I cant think of a single friend that I have anymore. I have no job, no chance of finding a new one it seems. I have no place to live. I have been sleeping all day every day for the last month, waking up to check the mail and drink and back to sleep again. I am 51 and I have no connection to anything. I certainly do not wish to trouble anyone with this stuff. I think that if I were to end life it would be very unpleasant but I think that whenever it is that I die it will be from my actions. Iam just very empty and it feels very odd and very sad. I am not needing any replies to this stuff, just wanting to speak about things I guess.
For the longest time i put on a front that I didnt need any help and that I was fine, and my friends and family went along with it... and then i would think to myself that if they couldnt see that something was truly bothering me that they didnt love me and that they didnt care, so what was the use of asking...
One day, i broke down because i literally couldnt not keep it anymore, and what they told me suprised me... they said that they knew i was struggling but they didnt want to impose and thought it was best that they give me my space to deal with it... but they always wanted to help and reach other, they just didnt want to overstep boundaries... so maybe thats whats happening with you to... i say reach out to someone, your kids even... you dont have to talk to them about whats going on... just a little chat would be good... i mean you have nothing to lose!!! :D i believe in you Cheese.. you made it this far, which means you are stronger than you think!!!
You can choose to not go back to bed, but do something productive, no matter how small You can choose to reconnect with your children. You can choose to reconnect with friends, or do activities to make new ones... What's stopping you from doing any of these things?
There's nothing wrong with reaching out and asking for help or support. People will actually want to help you, but they won't know how or when unless you ask.
Please, for your own sake, make some different choices tomorrow!