I recognise some of your symptoms. I hope you find someone to share your life with soon. Good luck.

I’m sorry about you’re wife’s death and I’m sorry that you’re going through this right now. I haven’t lost anyone I loved to be honest. I have been betrayed by people I love or thought I loved and I have been abused as a child. I seen this forum and thought It might not be of help because of the reason i am depressed. But like you I see a lot of perspectives and what people have been through

Truly sorry for your loss. I hope you can soon go forward.

So sorry for your loss, I cant imagine how hard it must be.
you are not alone, so many of us on this site have been or still are in that dark place. I hope that you get some comfort that i am thinking of you and wishing you well.

I am still learning to navigate site,
journaling is important about a lot of things
so trying to press myself to journal qd
appreciate everyone's remarks
what I could think is my wife's funeral is done
most days will not be so bad
is ok if most people cant recognize emotional state
I need that to start a new job, just keep moving

I'm retired, but I had been a Masters Psychotherapist & Evaluator
22 yrs experience and training, >8K clients, mostly SMI
if you read about people who took their lives, most just took the plunge & others didnt notice. Takes a special person to be able to see what is actually happening & help healing.
I hope God doesnt keep me here long, I would rather join my Edith at Peter's Gate, but in His Own Time
Incipient psychosis is another matter dont hear hardly ever.
95% of "mental health professonials" Ive met/ worked with
I wouldnt let touch with a 10 meter cane pole

I get medical treatment every other weekday for variety musculo-skeletal problems, hip replacement coming up around sept 1

Hi and welcome! I am here if you need to talk. Let's be friends. Sending you hugs.

Thanks for your remarks

That's a good observation Nathan

Thanks for your interest
taking care of basic necessities best I can
fractured leg
upcoming surgery hip replacement
have to get job least harsh after asap to keep my home
have to limp on the loss

I appreciate friendship, hugs back to you

Please practice Mindfulness......being in the moment only think about what’s happening at any present moment. The happiest people are those who are conscious of their spiritual need. The best friend anyone can have is God, who provides wonderful help in his Word, the Bible. Psalms 34:18 "God is close to the brokenhearted;
He saves those who are crushed in spirit.

Welcome to the group. My sympathies go out to you and yours. You are always welcome to post here. Lots of supportive people here.

There are other groups on DS that may be helpful too. Here is one for bereavement:

https://www.dailystrength.org/group/bereavement