Please help. I don't know how to move on or let go. This breakup has completely destroyed me. It's mostly my fault. I was depressed because I became dependent due to lack of finances. I started to feel like nothing I did was good enough. That I wasn't good enough. He stated he felt he wasn't good enough. One day out of nowhere he blew up and physically abused me. He was horrified at his actions as he's never done it before. I stayed with him and tried working it out. Thought things were working out and them bam, A few weeks later he broke up with me out of nowhere saying he can't live with a woman and needed to be left alone and didn't want to be in a relationship anymore. I was shocked and devastated. All of my hopes and dreams are shattered. I cry daily. I have extreme anxiety and depression. I have tried to reach out a few times only to be ignored or told maybe, he has to think about it and then no contact. I just cannot accept that the connection we had that was so strong and so perfect as we both want the same things, had same goals and interests and now it's as if I don't exist. My life is entirely destroyed yet his has gotten better. I helped start a side business which he is doing well in, I helped him get a mortgage on a dream house we were to share, I brought in a kitten that he is now keeping. I don't want to live if this is the life that the universe has thrown at me. I cannot deal with being alone. I am utterly devastated and entirely destroyed. I've lost a lot of weight and don't sleep well. I am on meds and I don't feel like they are helping. I don't know how to "move on" and "just be happy" or "let him go". please help. thank you.