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I'm having pretty much constant thoughts of death, dying, plans, etc. I'm about 90% sure I won't carry them out, I just want to talk about them. I want to know I'm not crazy, that I'm alright and that it will and can get better. I remember only a month ago I was doing really great. I don't know what happened, but I'm trying just to get through this.
I have a therapy appointment scheduled for Monday. This therapist is relatively new for me (about 4 months of weekly appointments). For some reason, maybe because we don't have a strong relationship yet, I feel like I can be really open about my suicide thoughts. Usually I keep them to myself because I don't want to disturb or worry people. But with her, I feel I can talk. I'm feeling like I need to talk. The thoughts are so loud and so disturbing that sometimes I think I can't deal with it anymore. But I'm afraid that if I talk honestly about how bad it is on Monday, that she will commit me to a hospital. I'm supposed to go to LA on vacation with my family on Tuesday. I don't want to screw that up. I want to see them. I want to go to LA. Not be confined to a psych ward. I have half a mind to cancel my appointment.
In your experience, what does it take to be committed? I had one therapist who wanted to commit me for cutting. Then I've had other therapists that I've almost discussed my plans with who didn't even mention the hospital. What is your experience?
I have a therapy appointment scheduled for Monday. This therapist is relatively new for me (about 4 months of weekly appointments). For some reason, maybe because we don't have a strong relationship yet, I feel like I can be really open about my suicide thoughts. Usually I keep them to myself because I don't want to disturb or worry people. But with her, I feel I can talk. I'm feeling like I need to talk. The thoughts are so loud and so disturbing that sometimes I think I can't deal with it anymore. But I'm afraid that if I talk honestly about how bad it is on Monday, that she will commit me to a hospital. I'm supposed to go to LA on vacation with my family on Tuesday. I don't want to screw that up. I want to see them. I want to go to LA. Not be confined to a psych ward. I have half a mind to cancel my appointment.
In your experience, what does it take to be committed? I had one therapist who wanted to commit me for cutting. Then I've had other therapists that I've almost discussed my plans with who didn't even mention the hospital. What is your experience?
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My 6mo twin DD's are EBF and just started rice cereal on the first. Everything has been going fine except this morning one of them had a diaper rash (lots of redness around her anus). I read this as one of the signs of an allergy. BUT I did just buy a different brand diaper yesterday (which they have used randomly before w/no issues). Do you think its the cereal or the diaper? Im ready to start...
One thing for sure and that is if you discuss with your therapist about suicide in an emergency situation, your therapist is responsible to report you to a clinic and seek for immediate help. So if you must discuss this issue, you need to use PAST tense and also assure that the thought if suicide is fading not to post an immediate threat. You can bring it up as a prevention and need some support to learn how to deal with the situation better just in case.
If you don't have anyone to talk to and you're seriously considering it there are hotlines that I call when I'm at my end. They can even send a police officer trained for crisis to take you to the hospital to assess you if things get too much for you to handle. These services are nothing to be embarrassed about at all and have saved lives.
It's better to take advantage of these outlets than to worry about being "crazy."
Definitely keep your appointment and talk about what you need to talk about. If you don't threaten action, then you're not going to be hospitalized. Also, if you have mixed feelings about your family, going to see them could be aggravating the whole situation. Even better that you keep your appointment. Thoughts are just thoughts. Talk to your therapist about it, you will feel better... it doesn't sound like you could feel much worse right now, anyway.
When I was going through a time of suicidal thoughts all the time, I was sure to tell my therapist that I was not going to act on them, but I needed to talk about what was in my head. She was great about it. Didn't even suggest hospitalization, like it wasn't even on the horizon.
Good luck