It seems like a lot of the time when I do hang out at DS I try to forget my own problems and just try to give feedback to others. I don't know why it's so hard for me to talk about my own issues and depression, but it has been tough for me. The really weird thing is that despite the fact that I try to help others more than I try to help myself, it seems like the ones I'm trying to help are often doing better than I am. So it really is time to focus on me for a change. I have been stuck for way too long but today I took a huge risk and I think that what I did may have actually gotten me unstuck enough so that I can move forward in recovery. I know that I'm being rather vague at the moment----there's so much to talk about! Right now just send me some good vibes that can help me get some housework done today. Housework is so hard for me. It takes me forever to get the slightest thing done. But I do keep trying even though I seem to fail more than I succeed. Thank you all for your care and support. It means so much to me to know that you are all out there.