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I know I have been gone for a while. That's due to me being in and out of the ER due to gallstones. I finally had my gallbladder removed. I am going through a really hard break up. Said he stop loving me a month ago, but didn't break up with me because he thought I would kill myself. He still continued having sex with me though. He was the first guy I had sex with. He blamed my depression. Then people started sending me mean messages calling me a bitch and saying they were glad he broke up with me. Also, that they would help me get him back and ruin his relationship. I honestly don't want him back he hurt me so much. However, I thought his new girlfriend (started dating her two days after he broke up with, says he didn't cheat) wasa sending me mean messages because I was getting texts from her number. Turns out it wasn't her. Now he is sahying I faked them and people are saying I am the worst. I am not capable of that. I am really, really upset. I would upload some of the messages, but they say some really hurtfull things and may be a trigger. I am just so done right now. My depression seemed to be gone for a while, even when I was hospitaized, now with all of this I feel as if it is coming back. I don't know what to do. I swear I don't want to ruin his new relationship, if he is happy then that's great. I love him so much that that is all I want for him, even though he did hurt me so much. It might make me seem dumb to say that.