I want so badly to just stay in bed or on the couch and not move all day long. I understand your desire to well to do that, but I have children to support and I am clinning to last hopes of a life. It is so sda how depression effects us, but we cant let it win. The common answer is medication and therapy, but what if one or both never do any good ? Well I am have found that letting myself feel down on rare ocations is actually good , but to do it every day just drives the depression in deeper and makes me feel worse and worthless, because I accomplish nothing.

Please take pride in small victories! Even if getting up to shower or cook a meal, or pick up the house. Anything you do is a major accomplishment when you or I feel this down. Try to do at least one thing every day and eventually you will find that your doing more then what you thought you could do. :)

Sending hugs and prayers your way.

That's a great answer lostsoul. I too feel exactly like Brooklynn. Every day I want to do nothing more than just take care of me and my two little dogs and do nothing else. I don't get that luxury until the weekends, but as I lie there in bed, not wanting to get up, I look around at everything that has to get done, and I just force myself up because it makes me more anxious and nervous just looking at it. Once I'm up and doing something, I seem to be on a roll and get more and more done. Or set time limits. Say-ok-I'll do this for half an hour, then I'll rest, and keep.doing it that way. Something is better than nothing.

I DO RELATE 2 HAVING DEPRESSION AND NOT WANTING 2 SHOWER.
I M ON ALOT OF MEDS AND DREAD SHOWERS CAUSE I MIGHT FALL.
DRENA

PS. HOPE U FEEL BETTER.
PRAYING 4 U.

Make one goal - just ONE - and accomplish that...Day 2 add to your list, etc...you'd be surprise how better you'll feel...!

survivor take baths or a sponge bath. I did not mean that the OP did not take showers. I was just making a point the just taking a shower or bath when being that depressed is a major accomplishment. Depression is a life thief if you allow it to be.

I am no better then anyone else and trust me I have all the same feeling, fears, doubts, and just plain drained of life. I force myself to get up almost every day and go to work and do the best I can. Most days I come home and do nothing though except that one thing I set out to do for the day. With the deep depression I feel most days it take everything I have in me to even go to work. I also live for the weekends when my responcibilitys are a lot less and I can have down time, but this week I had to work the weekend and that just drives my depression even worse, because I get no down time to try to relax not that I can anyway. I have this major problem with seeing things that need to be done and feeling bad for not doing them, but yet not having the ambition to take care of it. That is why I started my list of one thing a day to do, besides going to work so I could feel I made an accomplishment and something gets done. We cant let depression completely take us over! NO matter how much it sucks the life from us we have to fight it and keep trying to break free of it.

Peace and hugs to all.

i can relate to your struggles. I watch a lot of Netflix too. I know that you are able to work so I am wondering what it i about being at your job that makes you able to be productive but not at home? If you coud somehow tap into that energy and focus at home you would probably feel much better.