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My mother just literally told me that I am the shit under her shoes.
She said that I could not have had a bad childhood because I didn`t have any feelings back then!
Then she got angry because I spoke with my grandparents about how sad I am
and she got so pissed that I got them worried. She was so pissed that I spoke about my true feelings and that I did not conceal myself as a happy person.
She says that I am not her daughter anymore and the next minute she denies it. She is shouting at me and denies it next minute. She is insulting me and denies it the next minute. As a child she used to slap me in the face and now she denies it. Right now she says that "I" only feel good when "I" can bully people. Me! What is wrong with her? Now she says that wouldn`t have cared about my granny lying in hospital.As if I`d talk about it with HER!? I`m sitting here trying not to show my tears while she is laughing about the cats playing and throwing in comments about how evil I am. She says that she did so much for me- she never even visited me when I was in hospital for a year when I was 16-17 years because of my depression.
"You are only pretending to have depressions to hurt other people!"
Right mom, I`ve been pretending for 10 years. I`ve pretended to try to commit suicide , I`ve especially trained to cry to fool people and I don`t leave the house because thats part of my disguise!!
What is wrong with her?!?
She said that I could not have had a bad childhood because I didn`t have any feelings back then!
Then she got angry because I spoke with my grandparents about how sad I am
and she got so pissed that I got them worried. She was so pissed that I spoke about my true feelings and that I did not conceal myself as a happy person.
She says that I am not her daughter anymore and the next minute she denies it. She is shouting at me and denies it next minute. She is insulting me and denies it the next minute. As a child she used to slap me in the face and now she denies it. Right now she says that "I" only feel good when "I" can bully people. Me! What is wrong with her? Now she says that wouldn`t have cared about my granny lying in hospital.As if I`d talk about it with HER!? I`m sitting here trying not to show my tears while she is laughing about the cats playing and throwing in comments about how evil I am. She says that she did so much for me- she never even visited me when I was in hospital for a year when I was 16-17 years because of my depression.
"You are only pretending to have depressions to hurt other people!"
Right mom, I`ve been pretending for 10 years. I`ve pretended to try to commit suicide , I`ve especially trained to cry to fool people and I don`t leave the house because thats part of my disguise!!
What is wrong with her?!?
It sounds like you still live with your mom, have you considered moving out?
Hang in there. HUGS
My father offered me my old room until I`ve found something else but seeing as I can`t work or go to school it`s not that easy and I still have a few appointments with the local autherities to figure out a way in which I won`t be homeless or put in a permanent psychiatrie- because obviously I don`t want that...
I really want to leave but I really don`t have anywhere else to go.
I`ve been unhappy in this house since I was a little girl
She is pushing me everyday to the edge...
I get suicidal even without her but with her every day is a challenge.
Actually 2 of my 3 suicide attempts where caused by her...
She didn`t care though...
I`ve come to the conclusion that she is kind of emotionally crippled and my best friend only calls her the `evil witch`and that actually helps a lot because I usually used to put her on a podest and thought everything she said was right.
I even developed anorexia when I was ten because she always called me fat.
I wish I could go so badly ....
You say your father offered you a room? If he is not living with you and your mother, why would you not take him up on it? It sounds like getting away from your mother would be a very big first step to take.
I've met several friends here who have had abusive parents. They say it is hard to leave them, but those who have appear to be much happier for it.
Time to start living your life for YOU!
Would living with your dad be an option and/ or good choice?
Do you have a good therapist to talk with.
It makes me feel sad to read about how mistreated you have been.
treated. Keep us all posted
You can`t believe how good it felt to read them.
I was afraid I was just imagining it or whining or something...
There was a misunderstanding about my father though- he still is with my mom. It`s their house he offered me a room in-thats why I`m here.
Even when I was little I didn`t understand why they didn`t get a divorce.
But I thought- and now listen up- that MY FATHER wouldn`t be good enough for my mother... Totally the other way around...but I was her biggest fan.
I am in therapie and I like my therapist alot but my mom would never come.
I wouldn`t even want to imagine her reaction when I would ask her to...
One time she came along to my therapie when I was 15 and my therapist tried to talk to her (very cautiously) but she got so mad at him because "Obviously my child is evil and telling lies and you want to turn me into the guilty one. I`ve always been a good mother."
And to be honest I believed her back then.
She is always staring at me with her icy eyes so full of hatred.
She even looks at my cat like that because "the fact that you love her is enough to make me hate her".
I just hope that someday I can spread my wings and leave her forever...