Depression Support Group
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Consider this just a tiny rant as I just need to relieve some stress.
Currently, I am stuck in a dead end, high stress job that is really taking a toll on my nerves. I plan on quitting shortly, but as of now I feel stuck. I feel guilty quitting and not pulling in any income, but I do plan on working around the house and also working on art full time once again. SInce starting this job, I have worked tedious hours, rarely get to spend any time with my husband, and have not had time to create any art or music. This job has basically caused me to give up my life as far as I am concerned. I also work with hostile individuals who do not work and expect me to pick up after them, half of my clientelle are sketchy as many drug addicts and criminals shop at my store (I live in a crime infested dump), and I have NEVER received a raise, bonus, or ANYTHING in the entire 2 and a half years I have been stuck here. It's driving me nuts. Not only that, but I am almost always feeling fatiqued and sick, which causes me to have panic attacks at work. Fun.
Also, apart from my husband, I literally have no friends. Everyone round here is either into sleeping around or doing drugs and I do neither which makes nobody want to be around me, and lets be honest...I don't exactly enjoy hanging out with someone high and hostile off coke. I am virtually an outsider because I have morals, which is really messed up. Being as I try to be nonjudgemental as long as a person is polite to me, I feel hurt as I have gone out of my way to help people when they have hit rock bottom only to be spat upon.
I suffer from endometriosis, and all I want more in the world is to have a child. Although all of my endo has been removed and I have been told by my doctor that I should now have no problems conceiving, I still feel like I will never have a child as I am 34. Last month, I had a chemical pregnancy which really got my hopes up, just to be crushed upon realizing that I wasn't pregnant.
I also have a sister who is extremely ill whom I worry about often. She is on a ton of very dangerous medications which all interact with each other and has landed her in the hospital numerous times. Being as I don't drive, I hardly ever get to see her or my family, which makes me feel awful.
Currently, I am stuck in a dead end, high stress job that is really taking a toll on my nerves. I plan on quitting shortly, but as of now I feel stuck. I feel guilty quitting and not pulling in any income, but I do plan on working around the house and also working on art full time once again. SInce starting this job, I have worked tedious hours, rarely get to spend any time with my husband, and have not had time to create any art or music. This job has basically caused me to give up my life as far as I am concerned. I also work with hostile individuals who do not work and expect me to pick up after them, half of my clientelle are sketchy as many drug addicts and criminals shop at my store (I live in a crime infested dump), and I have NEVER received a raise, bonus, or ANYTHING in the entire 2 and a half years I have been stuck here. It's driving me nuts. Not only that, but I am almost always feeling fatiqued and sick, which causes me to have panic attacks at work. Fun.
Also, apart from my husband, I literally have no friends. Everyone round here is either into sleeping around or doing drugs and I do neither which makes nobody want to be around me, and lets be honest...I don't exactly enjoy hanging out with someone high and hostile off coke. I am virtually an outsider because I have morals, which is really messed up. Being as I try to be nonjudgemental as long as a person is polite to me, I feel hurt as I have gone out of my way to help people when they have hit rock bottom only to be spat upon.
I suffer from endometriosis, and all I want more in the world is to have a child. Although all of my endo has been removed and I have been told by my doctor that I should now have no problems conceiving, I still feel like I will never have a child as I am 34. Last month, I had a chemical pregnancy which really got my hopes up, just to be crushed upon realizing that I wasn't pregnant.
I also have a sister who is extremely ill whom I worry about often. She is on a ton of very dangerous medications which all interact with each other and has landed her in the hospital numerous times. Being as I don't drive, I hardly ever get to see her or my family, which makes me feel awful.
Currently, I am looking around my apartment and it is in shambles. Defiantly needs a cleaning and the dishes need to be washed. I'd do it, except I REALLLLY need to relax and the same goes for my husband. He is actually riding his bike to work everyday (a 16 mile trip) to the other side of the city, so you can imagine how exhausted he is. I feel really guilty letting this trash build up, but I can only do so much.
Luckily, I have a week off of work next week. Hoping it isn't spent stressing about cleaning up the house, finishing up freelance art projects, etc. We were going to visit the in-laws, but being as we are without a vehicle we are likely just going to stay home.