Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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heretic 09/23/2013

I feel totally miserable all the time, All I can think about is how to end
my life. I don't want to do it, I want to die peacefully in my sleep, but I
pray and pray every night to die and every morning I wake up to more
misery.

I don't know how to improve my life. I have no motivation to do it. I am
sick and can't hardly take care of myself. I need a life partner to help me
but I know no one wants to be with a sick person so I'm outta luck.

I don't have anyone to talk to about how I feel. I have bipolar disorder
and it makes life very hard. I have a pdoc but she doesn't listen like a
therapist. She just asks some basic questions and refills my meds.
I don't want to tell her how bad I am cuz I don't want my meds changed.

I take my meds faithfully and they keep me sane. They keep me from
having mood swings. It's not the meds that are the problem, it's my
life that is the problem. I hate living so bad. Every day is horrible. There is nothing that I can make myself do to turn things around.

I have social anxiety too. I really don't like being around people. I just
need that one special person in my life. But finding him has proven
impossible. I've thought about going to church but I don't believe in
a loving god. I believe god is indifferent, which is the opposite of love.

I know there is no help for me, I just wanted to get this out. I think
about ways to end my life all the time and maybe someday I will
get the guts to do it. Till then it's only misery for me. Thanks for
listening.

Cypressmoon1 09/23/2013

A bipolar group might help....

I left this message in another post...

Heretic....I feel the very same way....I'm trying to break this mold...even. still...and the kindness in people like you gives mehope. You know....I'm struggling just the same, right beside you....and I am also, still lonely...and it hurts to try to break that....but I def am not going down without a good fight....you are a beautiful person.

muskrattiger 09/23/2013

I have a SOS who is bye polar and we all went to some councling with him through the bipolar group you schould have one at the hospital or they would know war to send you and his family went with him to he also went by his self and wa put on meds and about 1and a half years he has been able to control it with the help ov his family ........it realy sounds like you might need your meds readjusted I. Couldent be around to Maney people and now I have 3 frends I see often enough others want to be frends I just keep them at a distance and if we do meat up we have a good visit .....I always use to push away people. I am learning to let some in.....it takes time and pashents ....I realy hope that you find a way to feel better .......you have to talk about everything in your life that has ever hurt you ....I hope you can also find someone who can help you with the bipolar and you need to tell the doctors just how you feel so they can help you and if you want to try other meds you tell them that to ....I will keep you in mu prayers.......god bless

deleted_user 09/24/2013

I tend to be a anti-social person i.e. withdraw a lot. I did join a social support group (you know real people not virtual)for awhile . Did help to make some friends and get support. Also a wealth of information on local help available. Might be what you need as some times virtual hugs just don't cut it.

deleted_user 09/24/2013

I want to introduce myself. I go by CatHaven. I just signed up on this site Yesterday. It is very nice to meet all of you! :) First let me start by saying, I do not have Bipolar Disorder. I do have Depression, but don't be fooled. Bipolar Disorder and Major Depressive Disorder are very similar. I really do empathize with you. I think it helps to know that there are people out there, (virtual or not) who struggle with the exact same things as you do. Are you willing to do psychotherapy? Have you been through some kind of trauma? I would like to get to know your story a little more, and try to help you. I believe that the best way to get support is to give support.

angeleyes92 09/24/2013

maybe you need to talk to your doctor about a med change. I'm bipolar and 98% of the time I want to live my life. If you don't have that at any time then there is a problem. You might need different meds

deleted_user 09/24/2013

This may sound ignorant, but can anyone tell me what Bipolar Disorder is like? I know Family And Friends with it, but they never seem to go into true detail. I would really like to get to know your situation better, and try to understand. I was diagnosed as Bipolar onetime, but it ended up being a "fluke." I show no symptoms of Bipolar Disorder, and my Psychiatrist even admitted to messing up, lol. :P

deleted_user 09/24/2013

Just to let you know, you are not alone.I've been there and I'll probably be there again.I know it is hard.Hang in there and know that people do care,although sometimes it doesn't seem that way.Do you have a pet,I get great comfort from my golden retriever,or how about a kitten.They can make you smile and that,'s always a good thing.

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