Please add phase 2.5 where you wait about 150 years or so.

Seriously, please talk to use. Vent, yell, scream, do what ever it takes to get started living again.

Gentle hugs

Please text START to 741741 !

It's a crisis text line, there are ALWAYS options. Suicide is never the answer, and we are all here for you!!

We love and care about you!! We will listen

I just want everything to be done, I tired of all the emotions and pain. I don't know how much longer I can last which is why I want to get things in order so when I do do it they won't be burden by what they will have to do. Because it's not going to be an attempt it's going to be successful.

It's always nice to have plans.

You're missing a couple of items on the list.

1. Go talk to mum and tell her goodbye.

2. go talk to dad and tell him goodbye.

3. call your brothers and sisters, each separately, and say goodbye to them.

I don't mean some stupid bullshit ring-ring, hello? hello it's me i'm killing myself goodbye.

No. I mean go visit. Sit down. Tell them your plans.

Let them have some input.

Involve them. they have a right to be involved, because otherwise they get to suffer for teh next forty, fifty years in grief about your loss.

whether you think right now that they will do this or not. I don't care. You aren't in a position to know, without asking them.

Maybe you should ask them when you say goodbye.

Maybe you should break open a few cans of worms now, while you're alive and in a position to clean up the mess.

Bridgie, that is one of the most innovative responses I've heard in a while.

and, Struggling, that is a VERY permanent answer to a temporary problem.

>>when I do do it they won't be burden by what they will have to do.

What about the rest of the consideration ... to them, yourself, us, the rest of the living world? 'They' will be DEMOLISHED ... not BURDENED.

I'm pass the whole guilt crap. There only 2 to 3 people I know that would miss me besides my kids. Everyone else will have to live with the guilt of pain they cause me. Whether they physically emotionally and sexually abuse they cause me. So forget them...

I live with so much pain now for over 20 years! I'm done!

you have children and you are considering suicide? Do you have any idea how disgusted I am with you right now?

Pull your head out, give yourself a damn good slap. How dare you opt out on life and give them this hellish inheritence?

You want them to kill themselves? Is that where you're going with this?

You don't get rid of your burdens, you just land them on the next person. How dare you land burdens you cannot carry on your own kids?

Get on your hind legs and pull your head out. How dare you.

Shut the hell up bridgie101! There other people that can take better care of my children, I'm not a good mom anyway!

I have a 2 1/2 year old and have been in your shoes. It's a daily struggle and I'm doing it all alone with no friends/family I can count on, however I know there's noone that can be a mom to him like I am. Why do you feel you're not a good mom? I don't think there's a mom on the planet that hasn't felt they weren't a good mom at least once.

They need a more stable mom. I have a 4 yrs old and a 4 month old. I have raise my hand to my older child out of spite. I can even vision myself hurting which hurt me even more cause she doesn't deserve that. I fear I will abuse her and I don't want that. Her godparents could take better care of them. I don't spend the time my 4 yrs old need cause I'm so tired all the time. That why I'm giving up, to give my kids better life and so they don't have to such a monsterous mother....so screw anyone who try to talk to me like a flipping child and try to guilt trip. Keep you dang opinion to yourself. I came here for support not a freaking lecture... all that does is shorten the timeline.......

No one here was talking to you like a child. This is a group where we try to lift each other up in our darkest times, so with that being said no one here is going to support you trying to kill yourself...ijs

Hi Struggling16. I can wholeheartedly relate to your wish to die. However, maybe you can try something a little less drastic before. I see you don't think you have anybody who rally cares. You know, Struggling, life is really one bunch of horrible things after another. and I'm learning to try and believe that. Yes, one tragedy after another, (take a look at the other war torn countries or people with other debilitating, miserable, frustrating conditions. I think maybe our job is to just live it. I've been calling it Radical Acceptance. My mother, (my father died when I was 5), said once to me, "Sometimes you just have to accept things." I don't know what treatments you've tried in the past, and what your diagnosis is, but have you really gone the extra mile in looking for help? I can help! Please write to me on this board and tell me what you've been doing to help yourself. Maybe I will have some ideas for you. I'm 75, and still dealing with trial and error, just to keep on living, why? I really don't know.

Callalily