I'm so mad about a bunch of things!  I had been coasting along nicely.  No panic attacks.  Little to no cursing.  Happy with the little things in life.  I've been crying my eyes out on and off for a couple days.  Luckily, I have an appointment with my therapist tonight.  I have 3 pages of notes.  I am feeling screwed in a lot of ways.  For instance, someone stole $95 out of my car.  It either happened one day when I inadvertently did not lock my car or my mechanics son took it.  Another example:  I have been on a dating site for just over a year.  I have had many "someone likes you" messages but they, like me, don't have a paid membership and can't write to me.  Anyway, so no real luck until June 6th.  A gorgeous man wrote to me, calling me beautiful.  I wrote back to him and then we both wrote again and then, 5 days ago, he asked if we could exchange numbers because he's not always on the website.  I wrote back with my number. He didn't lie.  He hasn't been back on at all.  Luckily, I am not obsessing like usual but it just reminds me of my whole dating history.  It has always been somewhat of a miracle when I actually hooked up with a guy and had a relationship.  June 5th was the 29th anniversary of the breakup with my last real boyfriend.  29 years!  That seems so unfair!  I was young and pretty with a nice body and just couldn't hook up with anyone.  I put an ad in the personals and got 135 responses but nothing panned out.  I believe that everything in life happens exactly as our souls plan but it has not been easy being alone.  I depend on my brothers a lot.  They are having a new washer/dryer set delivered to me tomorrow.  There is so much more.  I will let you know if I hear from the gorgeous man.