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On Monday, several "MacGyver" episodes were posted, officially, on YouTube. I spent the day watching them. This show was one of the few bright spots of my childhood. Even if the show came on late at night due to "Monday Night Football," I stayed up to watch it. Not surprisingly, I was one of the very few fans of the show at school. Nonetheless, I remember wanting to grow up to be like him, helping people and coming up with creative solutions to problems, to have friends who were loyal no matter how badly you or they (i.e. Jack Dalton) screwed up. Of course, none of that happened. When I got my first paycheck from my first job, I didn't go out to eat or by a CD. No, I went out and bought a Swiss Army knife, Thinker model to be exact, just like MacGvyer always carried. I still carry it with me today.
When I watched the episodes today, I found myself getting teary eyed and choked up. When I originally watched these episodes, I still had hope that the darkness of my life could be left behind. That I could have a bright future. I didn't know another darkness would come into my life, one more omnious and permanent, to destroy that hope.
When I watched the episodes today, I found myself getting teary eyed and choked up. When I originally watched these episodes, I still had hope that the darkness of my life could be left behind. That I could have a bright future. I didn't know another darkness would come into my life, one more omnious and permanent, to destroy that hope.
I had to do alot of work on myself over the years. I fought it at first and thought I was hopeless. Then I realized that I was it, the only one that could do anything to change myself and my way of seeing things.
Meds are an absolute for me, without them it makes it almost impossible to move forward. I dont see in your profile where you take any. Is it fear that holds you back? I took lots of steps to being well and it took lots of therapy because of my very challenging childhood. But, I have arrived at a place filled with hope and happiness and you can to, one step at a time, but you have to move.
Blessings on your journey. Hugs
even macgyver has his off days.
don't give up!
Meds are an absolute for me, without them it makes it almost impossible to move forward. I dont see in your profile where you take any. Is it fear that holds you back? I took lots of steps to being well and it took lots of therapy because of my very challenging childhood. But, I have arrived at a place filled with hope and happiness and you can to, one step at a time, but you have to move."
Well, the main reason for my lack of meds is my lack of insurance and funds. Also, I tend to develop resistance to medication. Am I afraid? Yes, all the time. However, to change this would either taken a lot of therapy or a miracle. I'm leaning towards the latter as there are few therapist who have dealt with dysthymic disorder in private practice. As for therapist in the public system, I might get an appointment in 6 months, possibly one hour a month. Considering my experience with the emergency public mental system, which shipped me off in less than 18 hours, I douby they'll be helpful.