Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
Haven't really been on here in awhile. I guess you can say I'm putting my "depressive energy" into things that will make a difference one day I guess. I'm almost finished with my first semester of school and it's going well. I have a two week vacay before the next semester starts. Hopefully good news comes about from my grandmother who is hospitalized. But if I'm honest, if God was to take her, I would be okay with that. It would be different without her. Is it wrong for me to say that I hope that is God's plan because I know my grandmother is tired of suffering and tired of living in her condition and situation? I mean this in a genuine way. I know my aunt wants me to pray and ask God to bring her back, but if He's not going to heal her completely, I rather Him take her. I just pray that she is saved and she gets to meet Jesus. It's weird that I'm ok with it. I guess you can say that the death of my father has taught me how to let go. I really wanted my dad to be here but God had other plans and so did my dad. So whatever my grandma wants, I'm ok with it. The crazy thing is God will do the opposite of what I'm saying to show me who's in control. He has a funny way of proving things to me.
I can relate to you regarding your prayer for your grandma. Years ago, my mother suffered from the complications of kidney failure and it was also hard for me to see her struggling. I really love my mother but I asked God to take her rather than seeing her in pain. It’s my prayer but still the Lord’s will be done. He is in control and He is the One who decides for the life of my Mom.
Don’t feel guilty. The Lord sees your heart and He knows your love for your grandma. He is Sovereign and His ways are higher than ours. I pray for comfort for your whole family as you all go through this journey. Take care and keep us posted.