Parents love us through everything. He is loving you right now in your sadness. He would want you to feel better again. He would want you to move forward in life and be successful. It's hard sometimes to take those steps, but if you concentrate on his love for you to live it may help.

Its hard to go on every day without him. Last night been the worst were I thought about ending everything. Nothing to live for.

Your father would not approve of the thoughts going through your head. He would want you to keep moving forward with your life and try to find some happiness. Trust me I can relate all to well as I lost the 4 most loved members of my family in a 15 month time frame and I buried them all. I have no family left and life is pretty lonely without them. I often go to the grave yard and just sit and think about them. If you would like to talk some time I am usually around during the week days.

Sorry for your loss. As stated above, your father would want you to move on with your life and find happiness. Please don't do anything to harm yourself. You may want to talk with a therapist or a counselor to help you during this grieving process. You could also join a grief support group in your area.

I know he would be not happy with me right now. Things here's just gotten worse. I think he would be happy to see me.

Emily, nah, he would want you to live. But that does not mean that he's not there in your life or in what you do. He gave you good parenting so you would know what it looked like, he gave you trust, love and caring....for all the same reasons. I can tell you as a parent that we hope we have given our child enough, even if in the moment it never seems as much as we want. But it would hurt to not see them live with all of what we gave them and not use it and add to it as they move through their life.
If you feel ready start a journal with you to your dad, writing what you feel, what you are trying new and how his caring gave you the courage to walk onward.
He was worth his weight in gold, as good parents are, but they are parents and the goal is to raise you to be better than we.
Gentle hugs of support and strength.
J

I do have a journal I write in when I'm down. But nothing else to write about or to tell him how I feel. The memories hurt bad and I try not to think of them.

I lost my Dad 8 years ago. I know what you are going through. It feels like the bottom dropped out of your world? Sure did for me. But it does get better. I no longer grieve the same way. I now do things to honour him. To make him proud of me.

Grief has no time frame. Find a grief support group where you can talk and share about your feelings of grief, what wonderful memories you have of your Dad, and get support as you hear other people's stories. Or find a grief counsellor to talk with.

What were some of the advice and words of wisdom your Dad told you while you were growing up? Honour his memory by living those good words. Become successful as a tribute to his life.

It isn't your time to leave this world since you haven't fulfilled your purpose for being here yet. Your Dad would send you back here so you could fulfill your purpose for being here. He would want you to discover what your purpose is far more than spend your time,energy, and thoughts of harming yourself.

Start by getting help with your grief from those who understand grief--and look up grief help online to see what types of emotions and thoughts people normally experience when going through grief--it really helps.