I don't know why this is so hard to talk about , but about a week ago I lost a friend who I had met here at DS. Apparently I said something that she construed as being really awful when in fact I didn't mean it at all the way she took it. I would/could never hurt people in the way that she implied and I am still in shock that this person dropped me as a friend, put me on her ignore list, mocked me for the abuse issues that I told her about, and basically told me that if I'm going to kill myself that I'd better go ahead and do it.

I don't know what to say other than to say that I'm in shock, very depressed, and feeling lost. This person never let me tell her my side of the story or let me apologize or anything. I thought we werew getting to be good friends. We were both starting to open up to each other and share our horrible abuse histories with each other. I was very worried about her because she said she felt so isolated and didn't even talk to people much on DS. And to be honest, I'm still worried about her, although maybe I shouldn't be.

I don't know. I don't know what to think.

Heidi