How dose one start...started with a abusivve mother..your mother is some one who was suppose to protect you, care for you, and always stand up for you...? Right? How dose one trust this cruel world when the one who brought you into it takes it from you..? I tried to get away I tried to get help...every day getting called stupid and names..getting hit in the head at full force...hearing her tell you to step closer because she wants you close enough to snatch..oh and never dare disobey just makes her mad... so much pain and anger and disappointment...and having a school counseling tell you I can't help you...just try and do what she says, try not to get on her bad side she says...it'll be okay she says...I was under so much stress I blocked out my childhood I have no memories...they say you find yourself when you're young...I don't know myself you ruined me! You ruin everything!!!...but I can't blame you really I mean maybe it was my fault not speaking up...maybe it was my fault you got the belt and whooped me for lying about folding the clothes.. maybe it was my fault that you hit me so hard and yelled so bad and grabbed me so many times I have ptsd.. I have issues because of you!!! I can't stand near people with out the fear of getting abused! I can't be close to any one because you didn't know how to be a mother!!! I'm ruined I'm broken and I'm damanged..no one wants a damaged person.. no one wants a ugly stupid broken girl...and what makes it all better is that you try now to make up for lost times..you try now to be a mother...you try now to check in and protect me from this cold world...it's too late..to late to care...the damage is done..I will forever be lost and broken..