I can't believe it has come to this, but because of my inability to work and keep a job due to my depression and anxiety, (i screw up every job i get, because i lose my temper or feel under attack and inappropriately respond) I have to rent my house out and move in with friends and pay them rent. that means my son has to move, go to a different school, uproot our whole lives, We have lived here almost 9 years and stability is good for us, but i cant do it. I cant even deal with what to do with all my stuff, i sit here and look at everything and feel that i can not cope even with moving. I have bills piled up in my drawer and I cant pay them. I feel worthless and not capable of taking care of us anymore. I just try to hang in there, but its very difficult. I am also worried about my son, he does not deal well with changes, and he is ADHD and bi-polar. And i still have anxiety, depression, feeling of fear, lonliness, i dont know what to do, and feel I need help, but i have psyciatrist and psychologist and i take meds and still cant deal. What is my problem??/ Why cant i function? I might get up today and not get myself to do anything because i feel fear if i even think about doing anything or going anywhere. I lost my security, simple job, because i could not get myself out the door to go to work. i would wake up and not be able to do it. i'm trying to simplify my life so i can deal, but its too complicated. I feel confused and am in dispair, yet i keep holding on to some hope something will be bright in the future. But when????
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