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Living with Regrets

mammytiller
mammytiller
I have never really been one who wanted drama in her life, but it has always seemed to follow me. I lost my precious dog who was like a child to me in February of 2011 three weeks after I lost my dream job. I worked in Child Protective Investigations, and a family lied about me. Granted I did make one mistake wihich I quickly admitted, but I never lied to anyone, and I thought my supervisors knew me. I was unaware at that time just how much that would affect my life. They later allowed me to resign, and I was able to obtain a job in foster home licensing. They did a random search, and found the report after I had worked for them for 2 1/2 months. Then I got fired for the first time in my life. Did you ever have a job where you just felt like was a perfect fit? I can't do that again here, and I just can't bring myself to accept it. I think about the one being who really seemed to be a comfort to me - my Sydney. Now she is sitting in a wooden box on my armoire, and I wish I could curl up with her on my bed and just rest. I have frequently felt lately that I would be so at peace if I could just close my eyes and then float away to be with her.
chelle37
chelle37
I'm sorry things are so hard right now. I hope you can find another job you love soon. I'm also sorry for the loss of Sydney. I know that you can't just replace one pet with another, but maybe it would help you to get a new dog? You sound like a great dog mom and there are so many pets out there that need loving homes.
richierich
richierich
Im sure you can get another dream job dont give up.
deleted_user
deleted_user
This is weird but sometimes it helps me.....The next time you see someone on the street asking for help go to your nearest Walmart/Albertsons/Wherever - Buy a sandwich, a cup of coffee, a bottle of water, and a chapstick. Give it to someone in need and smile from your heart. Go home and just think of how much you may have just given someone.
Sometimes this helps take me out of myself for a little bit. Like I said it's weird-----just a suggestion.
Almaluna
Almaluna
This is why CPS is so messed up. They struggle to keep their employees, yet treat the few good ones they have like s**t! It makes me angry!

Don't give up hun! You can use your genuine care for children and families at risk and the skills you learned at CPS at organizations that do a much better job at protecting families.

Here's a list of organizations that work on addressing child abuse and neglect, where you can continue to pursue your dream in a place where they actually appreciate your efforts: http://www.childwelfare.gov/pubs/guide2012/guide.pdf#page=66

Thank you for all you do for children and families!