Having depression all of your life makes it very hard to decide what you want or don't want out of life, but it will happen for you. Are you talking to anyone about your depression? I'm sure you aren't the only person with this same issue. You are not alone. I hope you find support and answers here. There are so many people willing to help. Hugs GB

I have some advice for you think about these issues really think about them. When you have ideas about what you want and need in life I think you are more likely to make them happen. You are at an important age to make choices that will effect your whole life. I sort of envy you! I know I would have made some better choices if my desires in life had been more concrete. I hope this helps.
Example: I want to get married vs The qualities I look for in a wife or girlfriend are...., or the person I marry should share my ideas of how to handle our finances my ideas are... What do ya think?

For a long time, I never really had dreams. My father was a religious nut-job who told us that since the signs in Revelations were coming true, the world would be ending soon. I grew up thinking I wouldn't even be alive much longer, so never made any plans. Thanks dad.

Anyways... What I finally did was sit down and figure out what would make me happy. Not what society considers successful or reason for happiness, only what would make me truly happy.

I've had a pretty late start and trying to find happiness and my place in life, which makes me feel slow and sometimes like a failure when I compare myself to my peers and even those younger than I am. But I try not to think about it. Everyone moves at their own pace and there are people out there much older than I am who have no idea what they want out of life. At least I have a clear picture.. I'm just not sure how to make it work.

I hope you have much better luck once you figure out your dreams. Aim for what makes you happy.

You can have, do or be whatever it is that your heart desires. The outer world is a reflection of our inner world. Depression stems from having negative thoughts and beliefs about who you are and your world around you. You can learn more at www.caitlinwinkley.com

Sure, and, for me, LACK OF dreams seems to cause depression.

Dreaming, and aggressively pushing to make those dreams a reality, seems to be the cure for depression. But the dreams must be realistic and actually achieveable.

ReedNotRed,
I seem to be right there with you about making choices. Thats why this year I am going to therapy, because I am nervous that with depression not only may I give up and feel unmotivated to do school work, I also cant make up my mind what I want to study! I think that once we can understand our depression better and learn how to deal with it better then we can focus on other things because I know for me it's really holding me back along with anxiety..
I also feel as tehdreamer does as being slow and behind but then I realize not everyone is going though what I am and we have to focus on us! We will e stuck with ourselves forever lol hugs to u! Feel free to message me anytime! I hope I helped some