Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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Life Without Suicide

WantToFight
WantToFight
I know most people here are depressed. But I want to know what life without suicide is like... I've been suicidal since I was 12, and can say I had more normal moods and was generally happy for a period of 10 months a couple of years ago.

I feel suicidal very much and it gets more real the more days go by. I've half tried before. I'm too scared... But I'm also very irrational at times.

I want to know what's on the other side of suicide. What happens when you live? What does a better life look like? Both my parents are what I would call ineffective people... I don't really know what a good life looks like. I don't know what I am supposed to hope for.

I want that because I think it would help me find a good reason to forget about suicide forever.
Tedward
Tedward
I'm not a doctor, but this sounds alot like OCD Pure "O" harm. Are these just unwanted thoughts that don't go along with your real feelings? OCD can make you depressed, MDD and Ocd commonly run co-morbid. I had the suicidal thoughts repeating all day every day until I was medicated. Just a thought, it took 5 years to figure it out, it's also known as the silent sufferer's disease. It sucks living in a dark hole. I hope you feel better soon! Tedward
deleted_user
deleted_user
just have a few beer when you need it =)
AngelAshley123
AngelAshley123
I am so sorry hun that you are feeling this way, here's a hugg. :) See, I don't really have the answer either, as I grew up in a dysfunctional family who cared more about its image then me. I dealt with bullies in school as well as being confused about who I was, and what I was put on this planet to do.

I have since accepted the fact that my purpose is to help people and love people. I just do the best that I can, and I have good days, and I have bad days. I don't think there is such thing as a perfect life. Cause there are people out there who are richer then tasty fudge, and yet they have broken families too!

Trouble is, we live in a very depressing world and its our job to filter out the bad, to make room for the good. One of the ways that we do this is by having hobbies. Helps to take our mind off the bad, to allow ourselves to embrace positive things, which promotes positive thinking, which brings fourth happiness.

Sometimes just having a child to care for is reason to live as well. Its good to be needed, put yourself in a position to be needed. Its the same way for angels. Angel's are needed, and it feels good to make someones life a happier one. But you can only show them the door, they are the ones who have to walk through it!

Good luck to you, know that you have a friend, should you need one. :)

Ashley
Christina-M
Christina-M
Hi! I know what it feels like to be really depressed and want to end it all. I don't wish it on anyone. With that being said- what helps me is to remember that I didn't ask for this depression and I try to do everything I can to control what I am able to control. I am not my thoughts or feelings and I can choose to let them take over or not. Happiness I think is different for everyone. I try to focus on the good things about myself and my life. I really seem to be grateful for the little things. All of this has taken many years of therapy and work. Sometimes when I feel really bad I'll need a medication adjustment. Lots of Love to you:)