Sadly I feel thay way at times as well. I want the suffering to stop, and I want life to get better. Steps must be made in a positive direction, but my fears prevent me from doing them usually. I hate how much of a coward I am. Hold on, be strong.

What'swrong & Enigmatic, I feel the exact same way. I have done nothing today except sleep, just wanting the day to be over. I cant stand the idea of feeling like this for the rest of my life.

You guys! My life is comparable to at least one persons heres story..and I don't want to die..I'm afraid to die....believe it or not...a lot of people don't want you to die either....

I'm 51...we have to go thru a lot in our lives...its supposed to get easier as we go...possibly it will is what I keep hoping.

If we didn't exist...so many people would be lost...I know my kids are treating me shitty...and I would love to be dead for one day...and a fly on the wall.

I think so many people would find out how sad these people that are not our support would react.

So just virtually die ok...look into yourself and others...and realize a lot of how people are acting...is their defense to what they are doing poorly in their lives....(this is how I think of it)...I try not to take my sons hurtful words to heart...even thou I do....BUT I do picture myself VIRTUALLY dead and I know he would be crushed.

Everything changes...whatever we are going thru now will change...
Give it a chance to change...stay around....you may be grateful someday. But if you go..you will never know....if you suffer more...or If I suffer more...than I just see it as a plan and a purpose.

I hope to see that purpose someday and I hope you do too

I feel the exact same way. I sleep as much as possible just to make time pass and when I wake up in the morning I'm already counting the hours until the day ends. I get so sad thinking of the old me who was happy and excited about living.

I can relate to feeling the same endurance of life. I just want the suffering to end. What possible reason is there for feeling like this almost my entire life? I have some spells where I don't feel like this, so I know there is another source of hope. Being on this board and hearing people find relief also gives me hope. Hope is everything.

I sure wish you were feeling better. Please know you aren't alone. (that is what is so great about the group)

I also feel the same way. After 43 years of life I'm not really sure what the point of my existence is. Yes, I have kids and obviously I have a duty to them until they are adults but that's about it. The inside of me is consistently sad....no cowardliness at all....just a person who's reeling from being in the wrong place at the wrong time quite a bit.

GENTLE HUG............................
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Thanks for the replies. I still feel life is mostly something we endure rather than something we enjoy. We can try to find a way to enjoy it, like saying, I'm thankful I was able to get up and take a piss today or some shit like that, but in reality, not much there to enjoy.

When I feel that way, I push against or into life physically, go on a 10-mile bike-ride or push weight in the gym. I find life enjoyable when my body is really strong and healthy. With strength and endurance in me, I can deal with whatever negative crap life has to throw at me and am aggressively focused on the positives in life. Enjoyment of life takes work, hard, physical work!

Thanks koolman, I work out, but not as often as I should, or I would have this dynamite body, but would probably still have issues. I think I fight life's bullshit with aggression and anger more than depressioin, until I burn out. Then I am pathetic and just want to give up on everything altogether, at least till I get my second wind. Like this weekend, I was so angry at what life has thrown at me I can't tell you how many glass dishes I broke, including my cake dish, on purpose. That is not normal for me, and is what happens once or twice a year when I feel like I can't take anymore.