Hey, it's definitely a hard thing to continue to live with. I was diagnosed 3 years ago and still struggle. It can be very lonely indeed! It's a hard long slog, but you'll get there I promise. There will be downs along the road, but in the end you'll be in a happier place surrounded with people that give you energy, not doubt. In the meantime, we're here to listen to all the worries a d horrible feelings you have. We get them too

Quinn is right. It is a hard thing to live with. I too was diagnosed 3 years ago, and for me it has helped to know why I was always feeling the way that I felt. Not that I know why, and taking what I take, my mood has improved. My wife and kids can tell when I am not taking my meds as I become a complete asshole. Hang in there and there are plenty of ears to listen to whatever you have to say.

We do have fears but part of living is finding out how few of them are realistic. You have to look at them, and then you have to say

"I've got sixty odd years of life left. Given how long the last 18 (or so) have been, I'm going to gamble on something new happening in my life that I haven't thought of yet." Which means - it means hakuna matata my friend. Worry isn't just a timewaster, it's a pointless timewaster.

You can spend all your life terrified of sharks and get run over by a bus.

People talk about 'turning corners'. "Life turns a corner" they say. what does that mean?

It means one day you wake up and something has changed so majorly it's changed the conditions of your life. That might mean a new job, or moving to a new town, or a new love affair. But it changes your life so utterly that all the thoughts you could have thought all day every day until now would never have come up with this. It generally solves all of your problems in one sudden, unexpected go and you're in a completely new space you never saw coming.

People who believe in the universe i think are talking about this. it's a phenomenon which has impacted my life a number of times. I no longer worry about the big picture, I just wait for life to turn the corner.

And THAT, not anything else, is the reason why having fears for the future is so entirely pointless. it's completely pointless. You can spend all year terrified of this thing and nothing even remotely like it happens. It's an incredible waste of energy.

So just live today. It's quicker, it's easier, and you can project that far relatively accurately. :)

Hi. You keep reaching out. There are so many people dealing with the same issues and you are. I recently became friends with a neighbor and she has the same, if not more issues then I have. In our newly formed friendship, we have been helping each other. Don't give up whatever you do. You can give in for a few days to rest but then it is back to working with positive energy an people.
Much love

Maybe (1/1) sit down can help with local counselling Center, United way 211 , am sorry your facing such challenging times, just don't give up on you.. don't be afraid you are not alone, call and ask for help

I do not like the idea of being 'diagnosed' with depression. It sounds like a disease to me that way. I knew I was depressed and my depression I really thought about where it was coming from. My came from my lack of friends as well and I do it to people when I get depressed I push people away. After knowing what made me depressed and trying to ask people how to deal with certain issues such as obtaining friends. I got no straight answer from people so I decided to do my own research. I went to psychology today and found a lot of useful tips on what I could do to help combat my social anxiety and such. As of latly I have started to apply these tedchniques and so far it worked to combat the feeling I get when engaging a social interaction. But I did not stop and think about the question I asked myself "what I could do to change it and how" with no thought I just faught of the feeling and dove in without fully thinking about what I could say and the benefits and down fall possibilities. So I screwed it up but knowing where I screwed up is the best part; because, I can work on that part. So the point is find what makes you sad and do research on it your own. Then set some goals to accomplish it, and of course you know it won't be easy to do, though it is better to make progress and fail and learn than to be stagnant.

Hang in there.
I'll say it again: Hang in there.
I was diagnosed when I was 18. I am 42 now. I'm still here. Sometimes I am barely still here, but yet here I still am.
As much as you can, don't think about the future. Deny it access to your mind. Look at what is right in front of you. Listen to what your body is saying. Are you hungry? Then make yourself your favorite thing to eat, whether its breakfast, lunch, dinner, or desert. Just start with the smallest things, the things that are right in front of you. Distract yourself with doing something simple, like coloring, or journaling. I have found that even writing down the shitty thoughts that are in my head, and putting them on paper, even though I will never read them again, helps somehow.

Minnesota winters are tough too - I've been through 42 of them. If the cloudiness and lack of sunlight is tough, and you live in the metro, go to the Como Conservatory and walk through that huge gorgeous greenhouse and feel the warmth and the oxygen from those living things. Breath in the air. Breath out. And then breath in again. Just do that. That's all you need.

many walk around depressed and do not even know it . They say it is higher than usual sadly I do believe a lot of what we read as bad news is related to depression untreated. there is hope , there is help , Exercise is a natural medicine for it I find