My depression has become so severe I an literally layin in bed most of my waking hours watching TV and waiting to die. I do believe in God and don`t want to commit suicide. Last friday I drank 17 beers and took 10 ambien and 10mg of xanax.. I wasn`t trying to commit suicide I just blacked out after 10 beers I don`t know how much ambien and xanax I took.I`ve heard my whole life when someone dies they have gone to a better place. I think we are living in the end times and I pray to be raptured before the world becomes satans playground. You have to believe in God and accept Jesus Christ as your Lord and personal saviour to be saved and leave this earth during the rapture. It seems like satan already has a stronghold in todays world. So many people seem rude and egocentric. I give up!!! I` pray that God would give me the strength to help those as depressed as I am. Right now I can`t even help myself. I want to die and go to a better place.
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