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knowing but not knowing

leopardfreak
leopardfreak
my daughter is over 4 months now, its weird , im weird life in general is weird. i know shes mine and feel shes mine but i dont know if i feel the way im suppose to feel about her. i love her but i dont knpw the feeling is hard to explane but i know its not the way im suppose to feel about my own child. her real father is well unknown the guy i think it it is an ass and ya . the guy that im seeing now is amazing, great help with thing but i feel like somthing is missing not with him but with my self i wish i can explane things better but i just dont know how, i wanna be better i really do . i wanna be here but i wanna change my apperence sooo bad , so i can live my life with out people i dont wanna see no more like exs or stuff like that,

does anyone know what i mean ?
TexasMade
TexasMade
sound's like you got a-lot on your mind you should take one step at a time! If life were only easy then it wouldn't be life. I'm sure you love your daughter with all your heart your just in a bad place right now to many other things going on. I think once you can make a move out of the area that woul'd be a start baby steps my dear . In the mean time continue to talk about your feelings don't keep them bottled up and kiss and hug your daughter everyday and tell her how much you love her ! Good luck to you I hope things get better!
deleted_user
deleted_user
I am quite worried by your post.
Your honesty is too be admired, and you are quite brave to delve into these feelings you are having regarding your 4 month old baby, and the feelings of you wanting to change yourself.

First, Please seek professional help because you may be suffering from postpartum depression. Either way, I feel professional help will benefit you greatly.

You sound so broken. (We all are to some degree, I think) Look within you to learn why you want to change the outside parts of you....

Changing your appearance is simply running from what is broken inside of you. You ultimately have to gain insight by facing your demons.

Hugs.
deleted_user
deleted_user
PS
Sorry for misspelling "too" and also, my post isn't as clear as I had hoped it to be.
I'm having trouble finding the right words....
Juice
Juice
I felt like this after my second son was born. I felt really ill right through the pregnancy and after he arrived I felt like I was in a dream. Nothing felt real, and I honestly had to pinch myself some days. Having a similar set of experiences as you, at least from your profile, I think it's important to see a psych. I was diagnosed with a severe antenatal depression eventually, but I know I waited too long to be seen. Please take any help you are offered dear, and make time to relax and sleep if you can. You do love your baby, that's clear, but loving yourself is just as important. I know how hard that can be sometimes, but remember that right now, and for years to come, you are the most important person in her life and you deserve to enjoy it!