Let me see if I can turn those sentences around for you. Lets start with number 1
#1. I have a lot of will power. I know my limits on what I can spend on food and what I need to put away for it.
#2. I have a gorgeous face, I'm intelligent, and others may see me as a freak, but I see myself as freaken cool.
#3. I'm good at a lot of things, but it's time to start getting better at new things.
#4. I'm a good person and deserve a good person in my life to love and for them to love me back, equally.
#5. I have seen that rainbow that was sent to me and realized that I was standing on the wrong side! Now I can see the light. It wasn't any ones fault that I was standing on the wrong side. But now that I'm on the beautiful side, look out world!!!

Change your perspective of yourself and all those above can be yours. And you are not invisible by the way.

I have to say this same things about me. I don't have much willpower. I'm fat and ugly. Don't think I'm good at anything. Don't think I'm good enough for anyone to love. Yep I feel all those things and other things like that about myself. My therapist says I really need to work on balancing out my negative self talk with positive self talk...but it's really hard.

Hang in there. It will be ok. Much love and Many hugs coming your way!

My friend I haven't heard from you in a while and I am sad that you are feeling so badly. I encourage you to post in the Self Hate Syndrome group about what you are going through. You will find a lot of love and support there. I struggle with self control too and it makes me feel badly about myself as well. It is frustrating to try hard and still feel like we always fall short. I know you to be a good and beautiful person. There are many people who look good on the outside but who are cruel and selfish on the inside. It is what is in your heart that matters and I see good there. I too feel I am not good at much and that does make me feel bad too. I know God loves you and I know you are a person who is lovable. Please know I care and am here for you anytime you need to vent. I am sending hugs and love and prayers your way.

your self hatred did not start with you. It started with someone in your life. With me, it was my douche bad first husband. It took me years to get over the negativity he deliberately put in my life because he was projecting HIS self values on to me. After I divorced him and married my "last" husband (that's what I call him) he helped me see there was nothing wrong with Me, there was something wrong with others. I am in no way beautiful, but I clean up nice. :) I had a problem with spendig but finallly got it under controll when I realized why I was doing it. Now, you can hardly squeeze a penny out of me. My husband has been patient for this turn around but now he is shocked! Put you self hatred back where it belongs, on the people who started you down this path. Take the split in the road and go down the one that shows you the beauty of yourself. Weight only matters to judgemental people. My best friend weighed nearly 300 lbs to others but to me, she was my friend and I didn't see past the first 150 lbs. My douchebag husband and I were married one week when he said "You make me sick". Good way to start a marriage, huh! It was because I came from "money" and he didn't and he resented it. He should have enjoyed it and we would probably still be married. But then, I wouldn't have the sweetie I have now. You are good, you are attractive in the way you are supposed to be and I'll be you have plenty of untapped talents. It's like looking at a photgraph. People look at them to see how bad they look, I taught myself to look at how good I look. It was difficult to make the transition but it works! Try it.