Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I am new to this group I have had a very hard life I am just 22 years old and My life has been terrible. I was taken away from my birthmother when I was just 13 months old and I was placed in a foster home. in bowling Green Kentucky. where I got abused It was horrible I got beat and kicked and locked in closets The abuse when on until I got adopted at the age of five. When I told my adopted parents what happeded to me they tried to get the foster parents arrested but no one believed me to this day I have nightmares and panic attacks that my foster parents are going to come back and kill me. Thats what they said they would do If I told anyone what they did to me and the other childern.
There are days when I think I just can't do this anymore I have been in and out of mental hospitals for years. My last vist was due to anger because my best friend got raped. to this day I still get angery every tyime I think about it. Now we are not allwed to speak or see each other because my adopted mom says she makes my issues worse I just want to give up Theres no hope left my life is never going to get better.
There are days when I think I just can't do this anymore I have been in and out of mental hospitals for years. My last vist was due to anger because my best friend got raped. to this day I still get angery every tyime I think about it. Now we are not allwed to speak or see each other because my adopted mom says she makes my issues worse I just want to give up Theres no hope left my life is never going to get better.
I am sick at heart reading your post. I am so sorry that you went through such abuse at the hands of those so called foster people. Hard to call them human.
It sounds like your adoptive parents have been generally good to you. However, they are just people, like the rest of us. Sometimes they make mistakes, just like the rest of us.
I was angry about my childhood too. At 45, I lost my Mother to cancer. I lost my Dad to cancer when I was 19. My Mother lived with me during the last 2 years of her life.....she was bedridden. It was the first time we no longer acted like Mother and Daughter......we were two women fighting together for a cause......her life.
I imagine you are on meds, seeing a therapist.....etc.
I wonder if you could work with your parents and your medical team to eventually focus your anger regarding your history into a positive direction.......like going to school and training for something that will ensure that no child under your watch is subjected to what you have been through.
You have the advantage of youth on your side......time to heal......time to study.......time to make a difference in this world.
Your thoughts??????
I am sorry that you have had so many losses in the last few years, hon.....
There is a bereavement group on this site that you might find helpful......as well as this one.
Keep learning......keep moving forward. Big hugs !!!!
However, you will always have her in your heart. I believe in an afterlife and I believe she is guiding your path.