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Just venting

Ebony
Ebony

I'm 29 and been depressed since I was a child. I've tried so many things but nothing worked and the reason why is because I didn't care for anything to work. I tried certain things like antidepressants because I wanted my family and friends to be happy that I was trying. All I ever wanted was death because that will give me forever peace. I usually sleep to escape life but now its doesn't work because I now have nightmares. I really wish suicide wasn't frowned upon. I wish they'd understand that I'm still here because of them but doing that means I'm living with pain and crying every single day. They also don't know I cut and burn myself all the time. I just wish I can finally do something that makes ME happy, but I know I Cant do that because people will be sad and disappointed. Sigh

rianbooyer
rianbooyer
Its hard to know what to say to help aside from i've been there. I was diagnosed with depression when i was a pre-teen and i've suffered from it ever since (i'm about to turn 40 now). I don't know your circumstances so I cant give good recomendations. What has worked for me is having people that you know that you can reach out to...your already part way there by being on a support group but nothing really replaces a real person. Let me give you an example...in 2007 i lost my job, my wife, my kids, and basically most everything i owned. I got bad...thankfully my brother in law and his new wife were there for me no mater when i needed support. I was friends with my brother in law since i was about 15 and yes i ended up with his sister. The rest of his family had treated me like shit for years even though i was taking care of my wife (she had been sickly) and got her everything she wanted (big mistake), saved their family land from the tax man and got most of their tax money back (around $8k), plus put up with all their bullshit. The only one that knew how much i had done and really respected me was my brother in law and his wife so after the split (she had cheated and even after that i tried damn hard to put the family back together but she wouldn't hear of it) i got even more depressed and suicidal. Pattie my brother in laws wife was great comfort when my brother in law ted wasn't available. They stuck with me even if i called at 3 AM crying. Since then i am always there for them even if they call with problems with them or their kids. It ends up a circular support group but it works....the hard thing is finding people who are willing to do this. Some turn to their church for support but there is a growing trend of people who are not religious so finding community support becomes hard but there are people out there. Don't give up Ebony.
Ebony
Ebony
I actually have support. I can call or text family members and they'll be there which I'm grateful for, but that doesn't bring the forever peace I need. For example, I can call a friend and vent but that doesn't bring peace. Suicide wouldn't be me giving up it would be me doing something for me. I know I'm not a failure because I've endured this pain for this long. I am glad that it helped you. And of course, thanks for sharing your story.