If you are not already .. seek professional help (counselng/therapy). We are all 'patients' here (for the most part) ... and we (probably) understand you quite well. We are not trained though ... so "be here' and ALSO get professional help.

I truly, truly hope you never harm yourself .. ever.

Thanks wanderingvet. I have already sought counselling...but it's the days in between my appointments that find myself in this condition.

As with the promise that I made to my husband...I promise not to do any harm to myself.

*hugs*

you are not alone, no matter how alone you feel... lots of us have been right where you are now

know that this is temporary... it WILL get better

as far as wht to do between appointments, can you do anything physical? a long walk or run helps a lot but i see that you dont like to leave the house... can you do anything in the house thats physica? run in place, lift weights, scrub the floors really good... anything that will wear you out ? it really helps a LOT

*more hugs*

it'll get better... eventually... you might have to help it tho

i agree with hopefully. something physical really helps me. its hard when you're depressed to want to do anything but if you just get started it helps.

Maybe a yoga dvd? Yoga is really helpful to me.

good luck and please do remember that things get better.

bayrabbit: Sounds like you need a friend. Maybe you can find something like an exercise class to join? The thing about agoraphobia is if you don't fight it, it gets worst. You've got to get out of the house! I am assuming you're seeing a therapist, and if you aren't, please do! And remember if you don't feel like you "click" with the therapist, don't hesitate to make an appointment with another one. Do you have insurance that would cover this? If not, you can still see somebody, but I think it's really important that you do. But just remember it is very very hard to people with no experience with depression to understand what it does to people.
Maybe you could look into a depression support group. Whatever you do, anything is better than not doing anything. Please don't harm yourself - when you feel like this, tell yourself it's the depression talking. Big hugs!

Hi Bayrabbit
I know this is hard, but one of the things that works for me is to do something that I can completely immerse myself in so that I stop thinking about the way that I feel. Even if it is only for a short time, giving yourself a break from yourself can give you a boost that lasts a while.

What works for me is to read, to listen to podcasts on subjects I'm interested in or doing some gardening.

What works for you may be entirely different. But the key is to do something that takes over your mind for a while, so that you're only thinking about that, instead of the stuff that you're usually turning over in your mind.

I think that talking to someone, either in person if possible or over the phone, would help make you feel a little better right now and in between appointments. I know that it is harder to open up to someone when you feel like they don't understand, but don't let that deter you from talking to anyone.Having someone to share your feelings with and have human responses can be a powerful thing. I can relate to having to reassure your loved one that you won't commit suicide. I was dragged into a psychiatric ward recently because I was having some similar feelings. I don't really feel suicidal, I just feel like giving up. What has been helping me a little is trying to think about how I can make every tomorrow a little better. And if you don't feel positive about life right now - DON"T GIVE UP - just keep trying!