I can certainly relate. For me I think the depression cane as a consequence of the anxiety. Once I had understood my issues but realised I still didn’t know how to fix them that’s when the depression kicked in. Felt like a hopeless failure and have done ever since.

And I get the feeling down but with no reason part. Even on the rare occasion I have a good day come the end of it I know deep down none of my issues have been resolved and you just feel depressed again.

I think it’s natural. The longer the depression goes on the less enjoyment you get out of things, even if you loved them before.

As for advice, well my life is a bit of a mess so I don’t really have a solution for you. Wish I did. I have started CBT (Cognitive Behavioural Therapy). I’ve only had one session and it was just an introduction session but it felt good just to open up about it and talk with someone. Maybe you should look into it. I really hope you make some progress with it.

Thanks for reaching out. What exactly is CBT? and yes I just feel in a rut constantly just don't feel happy and I feel bad for myself that I don't. Ya know you hear all those only you can make yourself happy etc. But the reality is I dont know how. I dont know how to fix this feeling trust me I wish I did

Yeah I hear you. CBT is a talking therapy. You identify an issue you want to work on and discuss it with a therapist. You explore the cycle of thoughts, emotions and behaviours related to that issue with your therapist. They set you homework tasks and things to work on to address the issue which tends to increase in difficulty each time so you gradually get to a better place.

Like I said i’ve only had the introduction session so I may end up finding it useless but I went for it because it was better than doing nothing. You should google it, there should be plenty of info available on it.

One issue I have with it is that it mostly focuses on you in the present and how your current behaviour can be ammended. It doesn’t seem to explore the past, which will be a slight issue for me because I think a lot of stuff in my past led me to the state I am in today. I’m not sure if it’s a similar case for you. But hey, you don’t know until you’ve tried I suppose.

Anxiety and depression often go hand in hand. There have been times in my decades of dealing with both that I knew a major episode of depression was rearing its ugly head by it being preceded by severe anxiety. It can be a vicious cycle. Therapy and meds do help. Having severe anxiety and panic attacks have got to be one of the worst feelings in the world!

I had been on depression pills for a very long time...... Then I picked up this book called, "A course in Miracles". I read the text, and did the lessons in the back of the book and while in the middle of the lessons one morning I grabbed my anti depressant medication, and I heard this faint voice tell me I didn't need to take them anymore. I didn't listen to it out of fear and took the pill as I had done every morning for the previous 20 years. A few weeks later, I heard it again but this time, I decided to put the pill back in the bottle. I never needed to take them again after that. In fact, I think I gave my left over pills to my exwife.

If you don't want to read this book or if you have a difficult time to understand it then meditation can help. There are alot of excellent guided meditations on you tube....Find one that resonates with you, or just google a tutorial for a meditation for anxiety and depression.

In the meantime, I will leave you with this:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YQIBIW6eT8I&index=32&t=0s&list=WL


God Bless

Oh I can certainly relate to that. I feel it so often myself. My biggest thing I feel like is that no matter what is going on, no matter how good things are going, or even how often I tell myself that I do, I just feel like I don't deserve to be happy. I don't deserve for good things to happen to me. I know that's not true. I am trying hard to work on that but it's how I feel and it really affects me that I should be happy, I should be able to reach that but I can never quite really get there. I hope that you can find some peace. I pray that you can because we all deserve it.

Brooke yes that's it. I have good things going on but just no happiness I dont get it. I shouldn't feel this way but its inescapable. I'm just rolling with the motions I feel