I just happened across this website recently and decided to take a leap of faith and reach out to you all. I'm a recent transfer student to a top CA college, and I've been feeling like my mental health has been declining since the semester started in August. To be frank, I'm not sure how to label everything going on right now because it's a mix of depression, anxiety, and a whole lot of avoidance. My apologies if I've posted in the wrong place.
I actually began my transition during the summer and had moved in July, took classes in a 6-week session and fared very well in it. But it's as if I've completely let everything go in the fall semester. I was bombarded with information overload through hundreds of pages of reading per week, countless campus organizations and info sessions, job fairs, career workshops, what have you, and I haven't really found my groove. We're finishing up week 11 with only 3.5 weeks of instruction left before dead week and then finals, and I'm still just floating. My transition to this city and living in a dorm has been okay, but I have lost the will to read and study, I can't ever get enough sleep, I find myself constantly unfocussed and my mind drifting elsewhere, I am starting to have chronic pain in my back, I'm several weeks behind on assignments, and I have no will to catch up. I've tried seeking counseling services, but appointments are a month or two apart, while the providers given to me by my insurance have no openings that fit my schedule.
I don't know how to get back up. I've somehow reached a point in which I have turned off the negative self talk, so I'm not attacking myself internally. I just know that I am coasting through everyday. I want to give up, but I don't at the same time. I worked incredibly hard to get into this school, but all that motivation has since disappeared. I've had major bouts of depression in the past, but what I'm feeling now is different. I don't know what I'm experiencing or how to break the cycle.
Thanks for hearing me out.
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