Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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Is this depression?

happywannab
happywannab
I have never been to an expert who put a name to my issues. I am fifty and I thought maybe it is just "my time" to feel this way and it would pass but it has gone on for years now and getting worse! I'm a different person than I ever was! I used to have goals and look forward to the future. I looked for places to go and things to do and loved being around people. Now I just want to be left alone, stay at home and do nothing...I mean nothing interests me or makes me happy! I still love my kids more than life but I don't even look forward to going places or doing things with them. I just go through the motions. I don't feel like making plans or setting goals. I don't want to "work on myself or my relationship" truth is I just don't care. I choose the path of least resistance, kind of hade and watch the world go by! I kind of wish I could just find a hole to crawl into it and sleep till my time here is done. Does anyone understand what I mean? Is this depression or am I just old and lazy? I used to love life now I just take what comes and don't care about anything! Can this be fixed? Not sure I even care? Sad but true :(
WallyBear
WallyBear
Yes..........I do understand. Everything! I felt the same way for 6 years.
I love my kids more than anything in the world and yet I found myself
avoiding them if I could Because I hated having to pretend to be okay.

It is hard, I know, But you really have to fight these feelings of just being content to "Exist" and Not LIVE.
Life Is so beautiful. It really, really is. Please fight as hard as you can.

((((HUGS))))
Community LeaderWanderingVet
WanderingVet
COULD BE depression. Might be menopause. Might be a lot of things .. thyroid regulation .. several possibilities.

Consult a doctor. I am sure one will get to the bottom of it and get you on a good treatment plan.
deleted_user
deleted_user
It sounds like it might be. What you have said resonates with me in so many ways. What I would say is welcome here. I know how it feels not care about anything any more. You may want to talk to a friend you trust or one of us here. Sometimes coping with feeling this way is one thing and trying to understand "why" is another. I am 49 and I am NEITHER old nor am I lazy.If you need a friend, a listening ear that won't judge, let me know.
happywannab
happywannab
Thank you all for listening. I know DS is a good place. I am a DS vet from divorce and break ups from years back. The people over there helped me through a very hard time. I got strong and happy with their help. I am three years into a new relationship with someone that is right for me but now I am NOT right! God gave me everything I asked for after my divorce. I have a good man, a great family and a good job yet I sit here feeling the way I feel (add guit to my other negative emotions!)My insurance doesn't kick in at my new job for another 5 weeks so I can't go to the doc yet. If you don't mond I will lean on you guys for a while to see what I can do to start putting one foot in front of the other and move out of this negative place I am in. I appreciate you all, I really do. It means the world to have someone understand what I can't even understand myself!!
deleted_user
deleted_user
Just stay with us. Think about it this way...we are all bozos on this bus and God is driving...so...the ride will be an interesting one...If you need a friend...let me know...


Regards

foxtrot