I would like to change a few of my cards. What is that called in poker?

Personally, I think life is what you make it. I have always felt that way until my health stopped me from making my life what I wanted it to be. I will say this, I use to run on anger. I would be on a job, get pissed and go do the things I needed to get a better job. I was working on my final change when my brain and body blew a fuse.

I was a waitress with only a high school education. I got to where I hated to go to work. So, I went to one of those 9 month business schools when I got a job as an entry level clerical.

I got aggravated with that, went to college and earned enough credits to become an account clerk. While going to school to do this, I realized I didn't want to work in any type of business office.

So, I changed my major to counseling. I almost had my masters too, but then I blew a fuse. Yes, I am dissapointed with myself. My health was so bad I was asked to leave the program.

So no, I don't think it is the luck of the draw, I think it is what you make it.

Yep. People used to say I had a little black cloud following me. If you want to believe in reincarnation, maybe you'll get a better hand in the next life. I've never felt of this world anyway and sometimes think being alone isn't so bad. Hopefully you'll see you are not alone in this and that will give you some hope. I too used to run on anger and negativity but people don't want to hang around individuals like that. Zoloft helped take the anger away but some might argue that anger is just a fore runner of depression. I lost a good job due to my health so I know how you feel. But, it sounds like you were otherwise pretty motivated until of late, so hang tough and be vigilant of any new doors that may open in your life.

Its not that my life is bad by any means.. I really dont have financial worries and my children are healthy and I am not dying as of yet..

Its the depression.. I hate that I was born with it and have to struggle everyday.. Just down in the mouth.. right now.. I hate this..

I like what silver added..

Life is simply the luck of the draw, and I've wanted a new deal from the beginning.
Of course everyone is stuck making the best of what we got dealt, but I've always wanted to be born to parents who loved me - that would have altered my entire life. But I'll never get that. So I'm basically folding and waiting for the game to end.

If you don't like the game, play a different game.

Sorry, I know that is a bit annoying, but can'[t think of anything else to add except for this:


meep meep!

I actually feel like my life is a product of my horrible decision-making.

I was a horribly defiant child/teenager, and basically did everything I wasn't supposed to do. I look at it as a kind of domino-effect and I feel like I will forever be punished for the way I was (and in some cases, still am).

i think it is both the luck of the draw AND choices ... which is why we have to Decided to keep plowing through this shit. sorry - just sayin

*throws all his cards back in*

I think it's a little bit of both

*takes Bistro's cards and gives them back to Bistro with a smile and a hug*

We get dealt yucky hands sometimes but we have our friends who will remind us why it will all work out in the long run...we are all here to help each other out.

Yes life can be very hard and very unfair, but if we can focus on the love we have for ourselves and others then that love can bring healing and recovery. No life is not fair at all but it's also not a competition to see who has it better and who doesn't. We're all in this together and the strong need to help the weaker ones so that they, too, can gain strength. Blessings and peace to you sweetie! :)

Life is just....stupid
It's more like a roulette wheel to me