The depression you shouldn't except. As with the self harm and best to get help with it all. Unfortunately relationships and love is very complicated. This time of year we can also feel the loneliest but always hope that the new year things will improve.

That is terrible this happened to you! Time will erase this, it might be a few months to a year before you feel like moving on. That is normal and the pain may hurt. You may need to reconnect with yourself as well. I would recommend trying to occupy your time more and more with various things like reading books hobbies. If your attention is way too off for this I recommend watching things that will make you laugh like stand up comedies on youtube or films on Crackle.com

Mistakes are unfortunately the only thing that is going to keep this from happening again.. by not making the same ones. Yes .. boundaries need to be created after you discover them. So a boundary needs to be made next time when you start another relationship. Perhaps if you like meeting people on the internet first in general make it a rule of thumb to only make a serious commitment and meet in person after a month. So you may want to make sure they live relatively nearby.

Also maybe try to spend some time with friends family or pets. If none are available to you at the time sometimes donating clothing to a homeless shelter or a time to a pet shelter makes things seem more worthwhile to be happy for. I am a periodic warm fuzzy do gooder... if that makes any sense.

As far as being introverted. It has it's benefits. There is a book you may be interested in The Introvert Advantage Making most of your inner strengths. By Marti Olsen Laney.

This web is definitely good for being able to express what you need to when sometimes you can do that on a personal level with people that are currently surrounding you. I hope this helps- Cheers

Please ask your doctor about treatment, because doing nothing is clearly not working.

You don't have to feel this way.

This is not normal for a healthy person but for someone who is depressed it is ........are you in councling of seeing a phicatrist ...if not than I think that would be a realy good thing for you to do for your self ........if you are on meds then you need to look into getting them adjusted and if you are not than you schould realy concidere going on meds depreshion in often not somthing we can fight by our selves and if left untreated it will get worse .......or at the very least stay the same and I don't think you want to feel all this pain ..........everything needs to come out of you .....every hurt you ever felt that is in your head needs to come out so you can begin to heal .....and to get help from a doctor you have to tell them exactualy how bad it realy is inside .......I learned this the hard way I would never talk .....about eney thing .......and one day it got so bad I ended up in hospital and they had to give me ect because I was going dowen to far to fast .....I am in depreshion now and am again seeing a phicatrist and on meds ......but I never want to go there again it realy scared me I dident think I was comming back and I dident care .........I have been dealing with depreshion all my life I have always had some leavel of depreshion .......but talking ......has been by far the best thing I ever did for my self ......when you are depressed it makes everything feel a thousand times worse than it would be if you dident have depreshion .....I will keep you in my prayers ....god bless

I want to send lots of((Hugs)) your way I know just like most people how it feels to loose some one you love.I'm thankful your still here you have been given another chance get some help and get it now .

Glanced at your profile and am glad to see you have joined several groups. That will help you find more people you can connect with.

You don't say whether you are seeing a doctor and are on meds, but as mentioned before you really need to do this if you aren't already.

There is no shame in anything you have done or experienced.

If you aren't currently in counseling, you might try it. It helps a lot of people.

Stay in touch with the groups on site. You will find people you can connect to and will receive support from many.

Please, if you are not under a psychiatrists care, find one. .

You do not have to continue feeling this way.

Much love and many hugs.....

I am currently not seeing any doctor. I actually want to forget this all,.. But the more i try , the more these thoughts come to my mind. I feel disgusting to talk about it.

Again, I really think you need to see a psychiatrist and get medication that will help you overcome this.
You have done nothing to be ashamed of. I don't understand why you feel that way. a girl took advantage of your love. She carries the shame, not you.
Depression, self harm and suicide attempts aren't something you can treat yourself, at least in my opinion.
You don't have to accept what you are experiencing as what it will be forever, but you do have to accept that you need help and seek it as you have by posting on this site. You've taken a step in the right direction by coming here. Take another step to get help from a doctor. You are not going to tell them anything they have not already heard many times before. What has happened to you has happened to many, Your reactions to your painful experience are shared by many. Give kindness to yourself a try!

I don't mean to sound crass or insensitive, but did you physically date this girl? Did you have a relationship with her off of the Internet? I'm curious, because it will help to direct my advice to you. I'm so sorry to hear what you've gone through.