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Is this theend for me? Is this where I cease to exist? I used to be able to close my eyes and find much needed hope. Now I close my eyes and see my funeral. I'm so done. I've opened my heart to certain people and it always ends up backfiring. I always end up being the one who falls and fails in the end. I wish I was one of those people that don't need love and understanding in their life to exist. I wish I could force myself to not think the way I do. Truth is, I slit my wrists the day before I joined ds. I was done then. I survived and came here to give it one last chance. I met someone who showed me I was worth it. This person gave me hope. Now I'm pretty sure this person just told me that they needed space from me. That I'm smothering them, or at least that's how it appeared to me. I want to die. This isn't a cry for help. This is just a possible goodbye. I'm too scared to put myself on suicide watch. I know what they do when you do that and I can't go back to the mentalhome. I just don't think I can actively fight any of my battles without certain people on my side. 3 of them ded in the last few months and now one of them wants me out of their life, I guess. So I guess it's my turn now.
But, I am sure from what I have seen there are people who care for you here. I guess I know who you are talking about, and I think you may have misinterpreted, I am sure it is not you, just their hurt. I am sorry if I assuming things.
Big hugs for you, I am here if you want to talk.
I am so sorry for your pain.
If you have ever learned anything on this board or seen anything on this board it is that in the end we must take care of ourselves first and then turn to help other people........ this is what your friend who has loved and supported you is trying to do and you are now making them feel bad???? Why not set your own problems down for a min and ask if there is something you can do to help them.... it will help them and you all at the same time.....
People are free to post what they want on this board even if it's really unfair but I am free to say that this is really selfish and unfair no matter how bad you are hurting. I am sure whom ever your friend is they came to you with no light heart and this is what you say to them "be my friend and help me beyond what you can or I'm going to kill myself fuck all the love and support you've already given me" NOT cool
I guess what you're saying is I'm not allowed to be hurt thanks that's nice of you.
I come on here because I'm fuckinghurting and now you're saying that I'm selfish yeah that's exactly what I needed thanks
but I can see why your friend needed some space........ hope this works out for you.
I see you. I see that you are hurting.
You say that you are sad because people are leaving you. How could you even think of leaving? Think of how you are hurting now, and imagine how many people on here and in 'real life' will be feeling the same thing if you give up.
I have seen you around the boards and you seem like a lovely, caring person. Please remember that sometimes, people just need space. The thing about DS is that everyone here is in the same boat; everyone is hurting. So they can't support you all of the time, as much as they want to.
I believe you can get through this, if you try. I hope you do.
((((((hug))))))
If you want to talk, I am here.
you know how much i admire you, alot. a young fella like u dealing w/ health and a child, u are to be commended. please, give yourself the credit you deserve.
and, ok, here's some advice, it's hard, but maybe it comes with time, a little hardening, you need people, yes, but you're strong on your own too.
it's not over luv, its not. don't think like that. if u lived close, we'd get together and have a picnic and take the kids to the park. i hate to see you hurting.