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Intrusive Thoughts

millymatters
millymatters

i want to die. I want to eat my pills like candy. I wan to get so messed up. I want to hurt myself. I hate this.

Scrofula
Scrofula
Try physically running, if you can. I know you probably can't, and maybe can't go straight to a gym, but besides getting drunk, which won't help you tomorrow, burning yourself with exercise might be it for these acute feelings. Tell your doctor to make one of those pills a benzo.
Tired
Tired
Sounds like you might have OCD. You can get better. The right medication and some therapy.
Jersey_of_Oz
Jersey_of_Oz
National Suicide prevention hotline Call 1-800-273-8255
We have all been there. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
I know it is overwhelming now, but it's like eating an elephant Don't get lost in how much there is, just take one step at a time.
You can accomplish it! I believe in you! You are precious and loved!
Pleae let someoen help.
sharaninmd
sharaninmd
Sorry to hear that you are feeling this way. Your life matters. You are too important to hurt yourself or die. You mentioned taking medication. Talk to your doctor about how you are feeling so they can determine whether you need to have your medications adjusted. If you are not in therapy, it would be beneficial for you. If you are experiencing immediate harm to yourself, I would suggest calling a suicide hotline as mentioned by someone earlier.
MichelleTNT
MichelleTNT
Hi Millie, I'm so sorry that you are feeling this way. I know you are in pain, but I am so glad that you reached out. I read your message and then I saw you name - MillieMatters. You sure do! YOU matter! Are you seeking help from anyone - a counselor or pastor? I'm not sure what your spiritual beliefs are, but I will be praying for you. I'm so glad you reached out. There is hope!
Sly
Sly
I'm sorry you are hurting so bad. I have the same illnesses you mention. Mine are focused on suicide too. I'm physically ill too which makes it worse. I have not been happy for 8 years now. I'm still miserable and ready to give up too. OCD intrusive thoughts are maddining. I hate my life and want to die too! You are not alone, I would suggest a psychiatrist and a talk therapist. My psych. put me on Valium (a benzo) and the suicidal thoughts have vanished. Ted
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