OMG.  I don't know what to do.  I feel awful.  I can't sleep anymore, and crying is just becoming a game to see how long I can go nonstop.  I don't really have anybody to talk to.  My two best friends haven't even noticed my rapid change in behavior, and haven't asked if I am okay.  I always check in with my friends when they don't resspond to my texts a day later, its been days and I don't have any motivation to respond.  I am not getting school work done, and I feel like I am just going through the motions at this point.  I put on a smile when I am not alone so my mom (i'm 17) doesn't see that there's anything wrong and make excuses to go to bed early and to stay home.  It all came on suddenly because I was fine Friday and starting Saturday things started spiraling.  Getting out of bed is so hard.  I refuse to speak only type or text when i'm not alone so that nobody else knows, and nobody has even guessed i'm not okay.  I'm checked out of class most periods and don't do the work right now, but I smile and act alright.  Guys, the last time I felt like this I really almost did spiral and try to end my own life.  I've never been committed to a psych hospital, but at this point the thought has crossed my mind multiple times today because its been really bad.